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Honesty and delete buttons

Thursday, March 07, 2013

This blogging thing is hard. I hate (hate, hate, hate) feeling vulnerable, and spread open for others to judge. Yet, I can't make myself write anything that isn't honest and (on some level) meaningful.

Which makes me procrastinate doing this, then obsess over it, fret once it's done and hover over the delete or edit button. Stressful.

I think the theme for today was advice. Yes? I am not great at asking for it, or asking for help. That means admitting I don't know something - which totally clashes with my type A, perfectionist personality.

Nope. Instead I do research. And then I research some more. But I don't ask for help. Well, not for myself, anyway. For others, no problem... LOL!

I acquired an eating disorder at the tender age of 16. I became obsessed with exercise. I researched the heck out of diets, fitness, weight-loss, everything.

It took me about 10 years to get better. But I don't think I have forgotten one single thing I learned. So, no, I don't need to ask for help or advice on how to lose weight, or how to exercise, or how to become/stay motivated.

What I need is to keep my demons dormant and my body injury-free. It's a process. And it's on me.

And now, where is that delete button? Hmm?

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
RUNNER12COM 3/11/2013 3:55PM

    You can delete the words but not the message. And some of us know you well enough to appreciate that you even make an effort to share what is going on inside that mind of yours.

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BILL60 3/8/2013 7:08AM

    Hang tough!!

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NUOVAELLE 3/8/2013 3:33AM

    Keep your fingers away from the delete button because it's so good to see you blogging again! Of course you don't need any advice on nutrition and exercise subjects but how about a little support or a virtual pat on the back? Judgement is out of the question, that's not what we're here for!
You are one of my first SP friends, Minna and I've always liked your honesty and your way of writing.
So, no delete buttons, ok?

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CASKUL 3/8/2013 12:34AM

    Sometimes it is really freeing to reach out and open ourselves up and allow others in. Each blog is one more step to open up to others.

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MICKEYH 3/7/2013 11:47PM

    For me, it's hard to live with striving to be perfection. I prefer make progress then perfection. You can easily guess my blood type. Right? yes, is "B." Lol. (*^^*)
Today I asked help in my blog about serving size. And I've got bunch of great helps. I am so appreciate all of the helps. It takes some courage to ask, but glad I did. Thanks for sharing your honesty .

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GEMLADYONE 3/7/2013 10:14PM

    Minna, what you write always rings true with me. I love your honesty. Thank you for sharing! emoticon

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    Minna I think your Awesome and honesty is the best policy! It is hard to put yourself out there but I think your doing a great job! No judgement here! I read an article one time that really stuck in my brain. When we walk into a room we think that people are looking at us or judging us when in truth most people pay no attention , it is you that does the judging of yourself. I have the attitude that I don't care what people think of me, but what I think of myself is what really matters! Stay true to you, you are amazing!

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MUSOLF6 3/7/2013 7:47PM

    emoticon for sharing emoticon

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SLIMLEAF 3/7/2013 5:54PM

    Minna, you are my friend and I LIKE you! I'm really not going to judge you!

Besides, I think you're doing a GREAT job! You may struggle, but then we all do that to one degree or another - most of us struggle A LOT, which is why we need SparkPeople. But despite your struggles, you keep going, you make progress and you make us smile - how successful is that?!

Keep up the good work.

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    I love your honesty, Minna!

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VAPIDWENCH 3/7/2013 5:52PM

    Don't delete it! It was a good post, and blogging, well it's a process too. One that may have values you don't know about yet. Writing things down and getting them off my chest has certainly help put things in perspective for me.

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    I enjoy reading your blogs, Minna!
Keep writing them.
I totally get what you're saying.
Nothing wrong with HONESTY!

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