Thursday, March 07, 2013
Well looking back over my blog posts I see that I have stepped up to bat and fallen off over and over..... sigh.... BUT NO MORE! I havent used the resources that are available to me as I should have been but will try to be more diligent in this.....I started my new "life journey" on May 9, 2012 and I have been so very diligent with this change of lifestyle that I have shocked even myself.
My "aha" moment came when I began to realize that I really disliked myself.... not just the outter me but also the inner me; really avoided mirrors, going out with husband and family because I felt "inferior" and out of shape. I realized I was sinking further and further down into depression, I started withdrawing socially, at work, at home, sitting in the chair on my days off and just not even coming out of pajamas --- eating anything and everything that I could think of. I really was beginning to let self pity and depression ruin my life. This all changed after finally opening up and telling my husband my thoughts of self hatred and recrimminations...... "If you are not happy, change it" that's my motto now...... I can and I am!
Since that day I joined a gym and started eating healthy.... I started swimming every day that I was off work and walking on treadmill. I couldn't hold out to walk very far on the treadmill at first, only 15 minutes and just moved it up..... Since that time, I have lost 41 lbs to date 2/17/13...... I am now on a 30 day challenge with myself to work out every day, plan meals and menus every day and weighing once every 30 days...... today was day 18 --- I have walked on the treadmill every day for 65-75 minutes every day - even after working 12-14 hour shifts!!! This is my NEW LIFE and my NEW DEDICATION!!!! AND I LOVE ME!!!!