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When you stop believing

Thursday, March 07, 2013

You quit on yourself. And that is what happened this past month or so. I just stopped believing I could quit sugar, excessive wine, binge eating, self hate and self ridicule. I submitted to self sabotage and self loathing. Where did it get me? With zero weight loss for February and an even bigger complex.
I was looking through some old blogs and realized I do not eat any worse then I did 20 pounds ago. I obviously ate less but for the most part I am pretty clean! I also noticed I was positive and wasn't obsessing over body parts! I was naturally losing weight, staying fit and SLEEPING. Oh and no excessive Vino...damn.

I woke up at 630 and brewed some Mayan coffee OMG good and thought about how I am going to live and stop shaving minutes off my life stressing over weight I have gained.
And its working. Looking on the bright side that is. Being, oh lets say,optimistic?
I am looking at my positives.
I cook for my family EVERYDAY! homemade tuna casserole

I am snacking smarter

Embracing my wild hair instead of thinking it makes my cheeks appear larger

And lastly Believing I can fit into this size 10 Dress I scored. I cannot zip it, and no amount of Spanx in the world could make me look presentable. But I am looking beyond the fat and believing that my inner fit girl can rock this in a few short months.

I started believing in myself again. And if you stopped believing in yourself, I ll believe until you are ready to start again.

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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KNH771 3/14/2013 8:08PM

    Do you know how hard it was for me to keep from bustin' out some Journey?! emoticon "Dooon't Stop. Belieeeeving...."

You know I've always thought you were gorgeous... I thought is was interesting where you pointed out that the difference in eating was primarily portion sizes, rather than food choices. Good information to have.

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ALOFA0509 3/14/2013 6:10PM

    Love this post!!! Needed this today-

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ASHPATCH11 3/11/2013 8:30AM

    Then spandex are looking good in the first pic for sure! Your legs are sooo long! Love it! Glad you wrote this Blogg it gave me some motivation which I need right now.


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JEANNIE52112 3/9/2013 5:57PM

    Omg I NEEDED to read this. Thanks for the inspiring post. I have stopped believing in myself and the potential I have to get to where I want to be. You rock girlfriend! You are so beautiful and you got what it takes :-)

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DEERLADY45 3/9/2013 7:09AM

    Keep the positive attitude my friend You look wonderful ! Your doing every thing right! Love your self and take care of your self! Continue what your doing and your gonna get thet zipper zipped! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon BONNIE

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VERONICAVW_140 3/8/2013 2:52PM

    YES!!!!! I love the positivity. That old saying "Whether you think you can or you can't you are probably right" is so true.
I need to be more positive as well. I've read about studies that show that an upbeat attitude can help someone get through cancer where as the negative person wastes away.
Let's not waste one more minute of our life being sad about our weight.

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DEEDEE1102 3/8/2013 8:45AM

    I feel like you are a younger version of me! I have the wild and crazy hair! I am tall and not dainty-boned:( I am self-critical, while people around me think I'm just beautiful!!! (That's what I think of YOU!) And I am part American Indian (Mohawk)!
Soooo, all I have to say is that you are beautiful and you need to take that in and respect it! You take excellent care of yourself and your family! You are perfect!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITFOODIE806 3/8/2013 8:25AM

    Exactly! How many families can say they have homemade meals every single day?? And with the right ingredients?! Sometimes I have to remind myself that this is more than weight loss, it is cancer fighting and heart disease fighting nutrition. It is giving my growing kids what their bodies need. You are off the charts good at those things!
Focus on the positive, and positive things will happen. (At least that's what I told myself last night after 3 glasses of cheap Malbec )
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BELLE0308 3/8/2013 1:16AM

    I love this blog and I am feeling this way myself. I stop believing too easily. I let obligations take over and put myself on the back burner and end up feeling defeated. You made a great point!! You are doing great!! emoticon emoticon

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ME_HERE_NOW 3/7/2013 9:54PM

    love love love it, keep that beautiful chin up babe!

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MYLADY4 3/7/2013 8:51PM

    Believing in yourself and getting out of the "diet" mentality is the best thing.

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PRETTYPITHY 3/7/2013 5:24PM

    Great post! I have to say, you are SO BEAUTIFUL! I, for one, dig the hair and all that accompanies it! Something tells me you'll be in that dress in no time. emoticon

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IMSUNSHINE 3/7/2013 4:44PM

    You are so beautiful! Thanks for sharing your insecurities bc we all got them!!! Good luck getting into that slaming dress!!

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SEESTARS 3/7/2013 4:06PM

    Just what I need to hear! You are amazing. Thank you.

Love your hair and that purple dress. I believe you WILL rock them both.

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