When you stop believing
Thursday, March 07, 2013
You quit on yourself. And that is what happened this past month or so. I just stopped believing I could quit sugar, excessive wine, binge eating, self hate and self ridicule. I submitted to self sabotage and self loathing. Where did it get me? With zero weight loss for February and an even bigger complex.
I was looking through some old blogs and realized I do not eat any worse then I did 20 pounds ago. I obviously ate less but for the most part I am pretty clean! I also noticed I was positive and wasn't obsessing over body parts! I was naturally losing weight, staying fit and SLEEPING. Oh and no excessive Vino...damn.
I woke up at 630 and brewed some Mayan coffee OMG good and thought about how I am going to live and stop shaving minutes off my life stressing over weight I have gained.
And its working. Looking on the bright side that is. Being, oh lets say,optimistic?
I am looking at my positives.
I cook for my family EVERYDAY! homemade tuna casserole
I am snacking smarter
Embracing my wild hair instead of thinking it makes my cheeks appear larger
And lastly Believing I can fit into this size 10 Dress I scored. I cannot zip it, and no amount of Spanx in the world could make me look presentable. But I am looking beyond the fat and believing that my inner fit girl can rock this in a few short months.
I started believing in myself again. And if you stopped believing in yourself, I ll believe until you are ready to start again.