Oh SparkPeople... I missed your face!
Thursday, March 07, 2013
Here we are again! After the international move I took smoking back up and got all depressed and stopped working out. I get depressed every time we move. It's how I roll... I'm not very good with change. But, we've been back in the states since July so I'm finally digging myself out of my own self-imposed "pit of despair" (bonus points to you if you caught the Princess Bride reference!). I quit smoking again and I am just as proud of myself as the other 5 times I quit. I'm determined to stay quit! It's been almost 2 weeks and I'm feeling fine.
I've been eating well at least and have managed to get my weight back down to more my norm. My energy level is rising. My self esteem is growing. I've been reading a lot of great books and discovering things about myself and my world that are helping me become a better me. Personal growth makes me think of this place and the RantsFromMommyLand challenge. I'd never been so "awakened" by anything... and after that happened, I continued on this path of self discovery. I miss you guys. Here's what I've read recently! I recommend all of it.
"Law of Attraction" by Michael Losier - try to find the good and remain positive and positive things happen. It's also known as Karma when it's good or "jinxing" when it's bad. I liked the exercises in this a lot, helped me see how I was maybe saying something positive, but not really believing it and how to change those feelings. This changed how I deal with my kids, my husband, myself, the world around me. I started being mindful of the energy I was putting out and positivity started flowing back like crazy.
"The Five Love Languages" by Gary Chapman - this one really helped me understand myself and my husband... and my children. It made me a better partner and mother. I understand now how to effectively show love to my family so that THEY feel it and the hubs knows how to show love to ME too which has been fabulous.
"The Element: How Finding Your Passion Changes Everything" - this book inspired the crap outta me. It made me excited to try new things and introduce my children to new things. It changed the way I looked at talent and obsession and allowed me to be more relaxed with myself and my family and their various interests.
"Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway" by Susan Jeffers - this one goes really well with the Law of Attraction. In fact she even mentions it... and rightly so. This book helped give me tools for overcoming myself as my main obstacle. I am working on being proud of myself for little accomplishments because they are all accomplishments. I'm working on building my self esteem through facing my fears and remaining positive. So far so good.
Now I am on hiatus from the self-help genre and onto fiction again. I need the break! I have so much information and notes and I need to be able to apply these things to my life until they become second nature to me. Otherwise, what was the point! I'm really focusing on me me me. I've got real actual paperwork turned in for college and I am terrified. But, I am working through it. I matter. I count. I am intelligent and I can do this. I am worth my time. Everything is an opportunity for knowledge and growth. EVERYTHING! So, that's where I am right now :)
Oh I almost forgot! I have a goal! I just measured myself and I want to be back in a 5 for my niece's wedding in May. Here are my numbah's.
Girl Waist: 28"
Distance toes have to be apart before thighs don't touch: 4"
I am trying to lose an inch off'n my thighs and lose my tire. I loved having abs. I'm doing "6 minute abs" every day and at least 50 squats. So far I'm in pain (after only a day... it's been a loooong time on the couch), but the entire workout lasts a mere 7 minutes, which is what I would spend smoking one cigarette. I'm sure once I get into the swing of things I will increase my activity, but for now I'm just so happy I am doing what I am! Major improvement!