Thursday, March 07, 2013
emotional eating... AGAIN. this is one hurdle i can't seem to get over. yesterday was so very stressful, and so many different levels. some were bad, but others were actually good stressors, but by the end of the day, i probably had 3,000-4,000 calories. started off really good. i work at the hospital, and family members always bring in "goodies" to say thanks. (side note, funny, that is how i was brought up also, food was a reward, comforter, everything). anyway, it was one of those edible baskets (fruits made into a bouquet). i took a couple strawberries, and grapes. then, i started in on one chocolate covered strawberry, which lead into about 5... then the "all-or-nothing" girl came out in me, and i started in on snickers (funbites) then home to top it off with a toasted ham and cheese sandwich with miracle whip, since i was feeling so guilty.
and so today, i have done the next STUPID continuation of hardly eating anything. (which, i know is just as bad). i DID train today, for an hour, but still thinkin of yesterday, and trying to figure out how to combat the emotional eater i am. i am not trying to beat myself up too much, guess i am just tired of doing it, you know? i know it is wrong, and i know that i should do a different activity to get me away form the "goodies", but gosh, it is SO easy to say, not easy to do.
today is also very stressful as i know tomorrow will be, too. hopefully, since i recognize what i did yesterday and let it go, and concentrate on staying calm today and tomorrow, maybe then i can get over the hurdle.
just upsets me that i just was upset about milk duds the other day, and here i am again...