Thursday, March 07, 2013
I have been i this down, depressed, not good enough for any guy, embarrassed to drive a mini van, and will never find any man type of mood for the past two weeks. And yesturday I had a moment with my boys and I just all of the sudden snapped out of it. I taught the boys how to make healthy breaded parm chicken....they are three so it was an experience lol. But I was having fun and it made me notice how they are growing up so fast. It was at that moment that I was like there are more important things than worrying about a man not excepting my situation. This is no situation it is my life and it is what I make it. Ever since that moment I have seen things in a new and totally different way. I am one kick butt single mom, yes I may live with my mom and three kids, but I dont care anymore if that bothers a guy. I also don't care if my mini van or the fact that I have three kids bothers a man. The right guy will not care but will be excepting. My kids are my world and right now I am here for them to teach them about life and love them.
Also I was changing diapers today and I saw all my half marathon medals hanging up. It hit me pretty hard, to see the GEIST Half marathon medal. Its one of the harder races here in Indy and it was such a big deal for me to do it and finish it. Right now I am training for the Mini Marathon for May. I am trying to finish it in under three hours, my record is 3 hours and 20 mins. I have quit dieting and more adapted just a healthy way of eating. I am trying to eat foods that will give me fuel, for all these tough workouts I have been doing. It feels good to be lifting weights and I am getting faster on my mile times. SO all summed up I am back to happy holly and ready to work my butt off the next 8 weeks to lose 27 pounds and become stronger.