Thursday, March 07, 2013
My life has become Over-The-top stressful.
Yesterday, I spent the day packing. Our oldest has decided she wants the silver. Wonderful! So I have it all laid out and will polish it all before giving it to her. Since DH is home, he is actually seeing this process for the first time. ( He travels A LOT)
He has left all of the packing and downsizing to me and with it all of the dilemmas of "letting go".
If you've never done this, you have no idea how hard it is. If you have, you will understand that when you give up items, you feel like you are giving up part of the person you got that item from.
So yesterday, DH is watching me with the silver and as he looks at some of it, he remembers his Grandmamma's Wake and funeral. He's feeling sad and Mortal. It's the first time that he's actually realized what this move means in terms of downsizing and giving up your "treasures".
And I am finding compassion hard to give.
He has lost his Grandmothers. I have lost all of my grandparents ( you expect this when you are in your 50's), my sister ( murdered) my Mum (lupus) my Dad (run over two years ago and bled out before the ambulance could reach him) a brother (estranged). His parents are both alive and well, his family is all doing very well. I'm not whining here, I'm just thinking "Come On, already, DH, try a little perspective here!" You can at least phone them if you miss them.
So anyways, between the work stress and the move and the family, I am making the conscious decision to take a bit of time off from the whole SparkPeople diet/ lifestyle change thing and just focus on the move/immigration lawyers/wedding( DD in May in Hawaii)/downsizing/packing /painting and listing the house.
I might have been able to handle it on my own, but when I also have to deal with everyone else's emotions and I'm the one who has be all nurturing and supportive, something has to give.
So, I'll be back, eventually. I may or may not check in, I may or may not track. "Buffy" needs a vacation when I'm hauling heavy boxes up and down my four level split.
Stay strong, love yourself and don't forget to change the cat box.
I'll be back soon,