What an interesting week
Thursday, March 07, 2013
Not quite in the "may you live in interesting times" sense of interesting, but it's been something. Maybe challenging would be a better word.
I started this past week on a real high, had very good weight loss for the week previous and more important, was feeling AMAZING. I'd just run 20 minutes straight without falling over, whee!
And then I got this ... thing I get occasionally, where I feel lightheaded and weak all the time to the point where even walking up a flight of stairs can feel iffy. It's something that can last for a day or two or for weeks. I don't know what causes it and I don't know what makes it go away again. My son started waking up in the middle of the night, disturbing my sleep, then my in-laws arrived for their two-week stay and started making unaccustomed noises at 11 pm or 5 am to boot, and I was exhausted. (Still am, for that that matter.) I missed one day of exercise entirely for sheer lack of energy/worry over how I would feel, and half-assed a couple more. Then just when I was feeling better again, one of my knees started twinging, argh! (I don't think it's serious, but I don't want it to get that way, either!)
And then food. My birthday was last week, and after a celebratory dinner of soup, spaghetti and chocolate cake I was closer to over-stuffed than I've been in months. Completely a worthy indulgence in my opinion, but still a little nervous-making, you know? And it's been every bit as difficult to adjust to my in-laws' presence and my mother-in-law's cooking as I thought it would be. I think I'm doing OK with it, but my comfortable routine is gone and so I'm always unsure of myself again.
And yet -- I'm doing it, you know? None of it's really thrown me. I haven't stopped exercising, and I haven't come remotely close to compromising my dietary goals. Something must be right inside my head.
Today was my weigh-in and it coincided with a new low -- down another two pounds. "Not overweight anymore" (165 pounds) is so freaking close now! It could well take me until April to get there, since the monthly "gain 3-4 pounds for no reason and hang onto them for two weeks" date is coming up shortly, but still. Pretty cool, pretty cool.