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Wednesday, March 06, 2013
It's been a couple weeks since I posted. Since then my mom ended up in the hospital where she is not doing great but my brother is here for a week from Alaska so I have a little break but next week will be me alone again.
I am still pretty excited about my exercise bike- for some reason the later it gets- like 9 or 10pm the easier it is for me.
It's been about 2 1/2 months and I have lost 30 pounds- I feel so much better walking around and today when I was in the hospital- I was able to fit in a chair with arms- granted it was a pretty big chair.
But now the food seems to be getting a little more complicated, I know I was on a honeymoon there with cravings and I am trying to figure out how to work on making this my permanent lifestyle. Going out to eat twice last week didn't really work for me. I do much better with 3 small meals a day and several snacks then with 500-600 calorie big meals. I just don't feel that I have gotten to eat enough that day. Of course before the meals were 1000 calories or more but frequency seems more important than quantity.
And THEN there is the whole sweet thing which is probably my worst craving- though comfort food is up there too. My son, thinking he was being nice, bought me a pint of some rich icecream on the weekend- he said " you can divide it into 4 portions like when you bought yourself one serving at shop and brought it home. " Well at first I had a stomach flu and didn't want to eat anything. Then Monday night I ate about 1/2 a cup, last night I ate the rest....So because it was after midnight I put it on my tracker for today which started me short today. Then today I resisted their burger king and giant whoopie pie. They left me a 1/6th of the whoopie pie which I ate.
So, I haven't really done anything too terrible and I know I have to figure out how to eat some treats for the long haul but it is so scary!!!!! I want this to be a permanent choice I made. I am enjoying cooking different things for my family that are more healthy. I hear people here and at my WWs meetings, indulging a little and they are ok and continue to lose weight but my history has always been all or nothing. And you know what, if anybody was telling me this story I would know what to say to them to encourage them.
Food, weight loss and gain is just so scary to me and I want to succeed and be healthy. Just writing about it is calming me down but how do people learn to do this long term and keep moving forward?