Wednesday, March 06, 2013
I am very selfish in this, because this might just be for me. But if anyone else wants to take this to heart as much as I do, then feel free. I was recently told that I am a very vain and selfish person for wanting to exercise. It cause me to stop and think about why I am exercising.
I see two items. One is internal self confidence and the other is external self confidence. External self confidence is something that I see as "looking good in front of the mirror" or "on the beach".
Let’s leave the visual self confidence out of the equation and focus on the accomplishments first. We all know that exercise is associated with increased feelings of self esteem and self confidence. Many people get a sense of satisfaction from accomplishing something they couldn’t do before. I have been taught to never give up and do what people told me I could not do. Everyday there is a battle waged inside my head and heart about what can and cannot be accomplished. And suddenly there is a mountain in my way. I can walk away or take it head on with out thinking. Find the mountain that you fear to climb and begin with easy steps. Feel every muscle move you in the right direction and by the time you look back, you will see how far you have come. I want to give more credit to the small steps over the large ones. Everyone knows the story of the man that was told to move the large stone to see success. He went out every day to move the large stone. He would push from morning to night, but the stone never budged. He began to complain that he was a failure and never would achieve success. He completely over looked how it had changed him. Push against whatever wall you have to until it falls down or you notice that it has made you stronger. Don’t focus on the negative, try to find the positive.
I exercise to find accomplishment in the small day to day steps to giving me confidence to keep exercising and build a routine. Each exercise session is a step in the right direction for me. I am not going to let anyone bring out my inner critic and cause me to second guess myself. I will conquer each day.
There is a soap box in my head and my inner hero just got off it.