Wednesday, March 06, 2013
So, after being back on track for about 9 days I had a super binge on the 28th, and then ate within range on the first and second, and then since the 3rd, I have been eating crap as well as eating over my calorie range. I still have a calorie differential, as I'm still exercising, but if anything, I'm just exercising enough to maintain.
I'm also happy because what I am maintaining is lower than what I was maintaining before. I'm getting seriously pissed off with myself. I'm jealous of my fiance because he can go hours without eating-simply because he's not hungry. I eat just because "It's time to eat", I also noticed that my protein intake is very low. I haven't had meat sine last Saturday, and what protein I have been eating is in the form of peanut butter, and I had some eggs a couple days ago. I feel like crap, and I hate the fact that once again, I've gotten SO close to my goal, yet I can't manage to keep going. I'm pretty sure that the lack of protein is causing me to crave sweets. The foods I have been eating are convenience foods. The last grocery shop we did wasn't very good.
I know I'm super stressed from school, and I'm guessing that that's a serious source of my stress eating.
*I have to finish an assignment for one of my classes that's already hard to do.
*Spanish Test on Friday
*Oral Spanish test next Wednesday
*I have to conduct a content analysis and write up my findings in a 5-page paper-due the following Wednesday
*I have a test to study for, that I will be taking next Monday
*I have to write up 5 short proposals which are due also the following Wednesday
*I have to do an analysis of someone else's research using a computer program that we learned about this term, and write a paper on that due in 2 weeks
*I know I'm going to have a final for one of my other classes, but the topic of it hasn't yet been assigned.
Basically, I've got a lot of crap to do. I guess instead of sitting on my butt here at home, I should really get on this. It's just so overwhelming. I'm going to at least continue to maintain until the end of the term, and then once that's out of the way, I'll have more time to dedicate to me. I know that the stress from this term is REALLY getting to me!
The good news is that I'm not doomed, I repeat, NOT DOOMED. This is just that 'life' part of 'life changes' that we all talk about. I guess part of this is light procrastination on my part, but there are other things that I had no control over. Anyway...the term is almost over, and once I get my awesome grades, I'm sure I'll be fine. I just need to take a moment and breathe.