Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I’m tired.

The last three days at work have been exceedingly busy and stressful. I spend Monday working on one file preparing a motion, affidavit and notice. There are so many attorneys involved that it took me forever to coordinate with all of them and get everything to the courthouse. It really took a lot out of me. Yesterday I spent 4.5 hours scanning a file, .75 hours burning five disks with the information on it. It was exhausting.

Then to top it off a client became unhinged and was sending threatening messages. They were told that we would be calling the police. They stopped, but I had not been informed of any of this and when he showed up in the morning I met with him. He was ok with me, but I wish I knew of the threats.

I woke up at 4:00 a.m. I couldn’t go back to sleep.

It has been one week since I split up with him. I’m holding steady. I have not sent emails, texts or telephone calls. He sent me a text today. How are you? I didn’t respond. I miss him, but as I told him five years is enough. I deserve better. I don’t want to be one of those old ladies with nothing but her animals. I want someone in my life to love me, that I can love, give to, care for. I have resigned myself to being alone.

I’m not going to the gym tonight. I am going home and relaxing. I’m exhausted. Both mentally and physically. My eyes are burning.
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    I hear you on the tired and for sure on the right to be treated with love and respect. I have learned with my fit bit one that I am a very active sleeper and move a lot. I am probably more busy in my sleep than when I am at work. you deserve to treat yourself to time to distress sounds like a bubble bath night to me.
    1721 days ago
    Stop, take a deep breath and relax! At a meeting last night, a yoga instructor said that it was calming to breathe in through your left nostril and out through the right. Each inhale or exhale to the count of five for ten repetitions. I don't know if it works or not, just passing it on for what its worth.

    Make today a great day!
    1722 days ago
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