Seems like I've been doing this a lot lately -- sliding a day behind here, a week behind there. Here it is nearly a full week into March and all I managed to do was LOOK at my February goals and briefly ponder their completion, or more appropriately, lack of completion. (However, as I'll explain, I actually don't feel bad about that and feel good already about things I'm doing in my life.)
Here's the summary:
== February goals ==
1) Weight at or below 165 consistently.
-- I will crack the "barrier", but it is not and never has been the real focus. What I discovered in February were some insecurities about how I'll look at a lower weigh and a comfort in being the weight I was most in my 20s.
It was funny and interesting to realize that when I say I wasn't obese until I chose to overeat to become invisible, that does not mean I was a healthy person at an ideal weight. I went from stick scrawny at 12 to busty at 13 and, with my height, can get away with some extra curves. In addition, clothing styles were religiously modest, long skirts, loose covering shirts, mostly bought at thrift stores. I hated them, didn't have a clue what size, and didn't pay much attention to my body under them other than to know I wasn't "fat".
Long story short, I'm less concerned now with the scale number and more concerned with where and how I see the extra fatty tissue on my body. I want to see that start to visibly shrink. That is where I'm going to be focusing. I'll still keep this goal because in the realm of 3-month + changes to my body, the scale will also adjust naturally.
2) Automatic savings transfer set up.
This did not happen, but with the short month I wasn't going to rush to set aside money I didn't have. (Maybe if savings account interest rates were worth anything ...) I am, however, manually moving over some money once I calculate how much I can do. I have other automatic payments and have to be careful not to trip myself. Overdraft fees can KILL finances a heck of a lot faster than not earning 0.85% (or about $0.03 a month on $50.)
3) 30+ minutes writing streak
I was doing great on this, whizzing along. Then crash, clatter, boom. I wish I could blame the hospital stay, but the truth is I was struggling in the week before with it. Completely crashed one night missing it and never caught up fully.
The biggest problem I've had is that I set my time to do it in the late late evening. Which means I'm usually doing it just about the time I'm physically and mentally shutting down to sleep. I end up drifting and pretty soon have no new words, but a long line of ++++ across the page where one finger pressed more.
I need to reconsider this one and schedule a more workable time. I'm actually thinking of an hour or two on the weekend. I thought about carrying my laptop, but I carry too much already and don't ride any one bus or light rail long enough to get into the story, write, then pack up and make sure I get off at my stop with everything. To be determined.
4) 6+ hours sleep as much as possible
Hmmmm, this goal was just a little too loosely stated (how much is "as much as possible"?), but I think I did generally keep this in mind. Of all things, the one goal I did best on was the trouble one of sleep. I did track it up to a point, then the hospital stay threw a real wrench in there. I actually had a whole week and a half after that during which I fell behind on keeping up with any of my "Other Goals" page.
It is still an ongoing goal to improve my sleep. I'm trying to keep 6 as a bare minimum and get more whenever possible. I do call this one
in one regard. I made this goal because I was seriously wiping myself out mentally and physically with a few nights of minimal sleep (less than 5 hours), which usually leads to poor habits elsewhere. This month's habit flops weren't sleep-deprivation related, at least.
I know it's not quite Spring yet, but this is a look at where I am and expect to be in two weeks. Yeah ...
... only 2 weeks until the official start of spring.
== by Spring goals ==
1) Novel first draft completed
Gonna have to crank on this.
2) Correct my work productivity
Yeah, one part of that is ... not posting while at work. (It's lunch now, though.) However, I have started to work with a task listing, have caught up on two major projects and am now tackling the ugly elephant in the living room. By that I mean a huge project that everyone wants done and kept current but refuses to give any priority to and grouses if time is spent on it. I feel a lot better about where I am than I did in December.
3) Get comfortable with lunges
Wow ... no lunge or squat emoticons? Anyway, I've been doing these occasionally. Actually felt I was doing okay Tuesday up until a point when a knee and hamstring decided enough was enough. Comfortable might be a stretch to accomplish in a few weeks, and I'll never like them, but I'm doing them.
4) Personal training
No money emoticon either. Finances dictated this won't happen until the health thing is done. I have the hospital copay, but then there's the followup work too just to be sure everything is good. (Cholesterol, for example) I'm also doing rather well incorporating different exercises and my four-day split.
5) Taxes filed - DONE
I do need to print the vouchers and send the payments, but between Fed and State it is less than $50, so not an issue.
6) Hit my weight goal and in maintenance
Okay, so I knew when I made it that it was possible I wouldn't get there and it's pretty clear that won't happen in two weeks. Again, weight isn't really as important to me.
Sounds like I really didn't get far in February, but the truth is I feel like I made more progress inside than outside (lots of head stuff, less body stuff) and don't feel like I blew it. The heart thing did come up and was thankfully nothing serious. (I still have rare episodes I notice, but nothing quite like that. I've been taking my aspirin with my multi-vit and fish oil daily. The only other quirk is what it does to my HR monitor readings.)
Some other things have changed. A really really big one is my involvement with the game WOW. Before I moved in August of 2011, I was majorly stressed. I would come home from work and bury myself in-game. I logged 40 hours many weeks of gaming (including weekends when I could play almost all day.) I was also rather active on the forums and assisting other players where I could.
These days? The last time I logged in, I looked to see who else was on, checked my character's mail, and logged back off. I looked at my play-time reports and discovered less than an hour playing in a month. It has been months (a year?) since I even tried to be active on the forum and keep up with the news. The time had come. I cancelled my subscription and sent a notice related to my forum account (it had a special flag because I used to help a lot). My paid time runs out 11 March and I'm not even feeling particularly concerned.
Lunch is over, so I'm going to end here and think about what my March goals will be as well as what I want to do by Summer. Until later, SPARK on SPARKLERS (and OUTLAWS!)