Wednesday, March 06, 2013
It's taken me over a year, but I finally have gotten back to where I was in 2008 and was initially losing the weight. It was a mindset of tough determination, I mostly hardened myself to temptations and the concept of quitting. I stuck with it for a good while after reaching goal and then started softening up too much.
So I am back to the hardened determination to lose the few pounds that have crept back over the past few years. I really want to get back to the lower 140s. I know 5-10 lbs doesn't seem that much to those with much greater numbers, especially since I started out with 60 lbs to lose. But we all start fighting our own battle from where we are today. I feel like I have been false starting and false starting and false starting to stay on track to take off these few pounds and it has left me very frustrated with myself.
Late last week, something kind of went "click" in my head and I gritted my teeth and got some traction on the evening snacking problem I have been battling for months. I don't know what it was exactly that clicked, but the buckles are fastened and I am ready to keep my appendages inside the car (and not reaching for snacks) until I get back to where I want to be. I like 142, I dunno why, it's just "my" number.
Two of my favorite treats are here in the office today: doughnuts and nacho cheese doritos. ARGH! I have managed to walk past them and told myself NO NO NO every time I have passed them by... so far so good! I have also been working hard to bring healthy snacks with me to work, just so I have an alternative... grapes and carrots are a special favorite of mine.
Maintenance doesn't mean perfection... it doesn't mean you don't slip... it doesn't mean you are perfect... it just means the road goes on and on... like the biggest loser, you have to keep doing all the things that you have learned.