Wednesday, March 06, 2013
What is your most powerful tool? Mine is meditation. I have found that I can completely change my mind and my attitude if I just do a meditation about. I dig into the nitty gritty of whats bothering me and I release it. I just let it go. I get to decide how I want to feel and what I want to do. Its almost like magic. I have given myself self confidence, I have left behind bad habits (computer games have no real value in real life peeps.) I am working on only eating when I'm hungry, adding cardio before breakfast, and adding yoga before bed.
I had some IBS last week, some sort of bug bit my insides. I'm still fighting tiredness and the urge to eat out so that I don't have to stand and do the cooking.
I am also embarrassed about my current size. I had been so much more slender for so many years. The weight gain with my infections and antibiotics has been demoralizing. I have had to fight the internal feeling that nothing that I did was enough to achieve what I wanted, so for a while, I just didn't see the point in trying. That is, until I started to read that most of my friends online are in the same boat: if we so much as stray a little on the diet we gain weight very quickly. So, I guess its not just me and that really is the way things are. I don't have to feel singled out because I'm not being singled out. Everybody is in this thing together.
The question is: Does eating food that is convenient more important to me than avoiding extreme obesity and a wheel chair? Do I want to die from diabetes? Do I want to go blind? Do I want to have skin infections that cover my whole body? Do I want to be 300 lbs? 400 lbs? 600 lbs?? For me the choice is convenience now versus grievous inconvenience later.
That brings me back to my most powerful tool. Did you know that if you prepare your clothing and choose your workout the night before, and you loosely plan the following day's meals, that you have a much greater chance of achieving your goals? Sometimes little things like washing a to go cup for your own drinks (lemon water is satisfying and has hardly any carbs.) can make a big difference over time. Did you know that soda pop is tough on your kidneys? It is. Did you know that a meditation the day before will make the following day a breeze? It can completely set aside qualms that you may have had, it can give you confidence, it can quell any fears, and give you the oomph you need to get out of bed.
Normal day to day bloggy stuff:
My home is finally finished through the repairs. Yeah!! So, I can shower, I can get up when I want to, I don't have guys hammering and making noise. Life is good. All that is left is some tile in the bathroom, and we are doing that ourselves. I have to pick up the tile, stop at the store for celery (I'm making low carb stuffed mushrooms), sort papers, and do a step/dance/yoga workout.