Wednesday, March 06, 2013
Here is what's new:
I've recently been informed that my contract will not be renewed for the job I'm in, so as of the middle of June, I am out of work. This is heartbreaking, but I am trying to see it as an opportunity for positive change. It is hard, though.. Very hard. It's not a good paying job, but one I was very invested in emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. So I have been dealing with depression and trying to find my self worth again.
Also, my mother isn't doing well. A little while ago the plan was for my Mom and her husband to move back to NH to be near us, but they have decided they're not healthy enough to make this move. Given my job situation and that my DH can work anywhere in the country (he does tech support via phone and computer), we are thinking of moving to Florida so I can be near my mother. We don't think she will with us too much longer. I've always been very close to her.
So yeah, perhaps the job change is a good thing as it gives me the opportunity to move near my mother.. Unfortunately, my husband really doesn't want to move to Florida at all. He lived there when he was young and has very bad memories. I have said it is only a temporary move, and I believe that, but I don't really want to be back in this same place we live now, I don't think. There is also the issue of the house we own here..
I have continued to eat healthy foods and haven't gone to anything really bad, no soda, no fast foods, no bad desserts, but I am not paying as much attention to tracking and have not done as much exercise. My weight has stabilized about 232 lbs. At least I think it's there, as I haven't weighed in over a week now. I hope it isn't higher. I am back in my bigger pants, the 2X, not the 1X ones. I had been down to 224 lbs in the early fall and started going up in October.
I decided I really want to get down to 200 lbs, so I have recommitted to this as a goal. I think possibly the goal of 160 was too hard to conceive of, and that will be OK with me even if I don't go lower., I probably will aim for lower some day, but at least that. And if I don't get back into this I won't get there. I just have to start paying more attention. My FitBit helps, and I do walk daily, but more like 5000 steps, not 10,000. I don't like walking much in the wintertime - the cold, the messy, the dark. Oh, and the dancing - well, my headphones are broken so that really messes up being able to dance at my computer. The Roku remote is also missing, so dancing music over the TV is out. Such a ridiculous tech. stumbling block, but true. And hula hooping - I do that outside and it's too cold. I can't do it over a winter coat. So I am looking forward to Spring.
Another obstacle to my improved fitness is that I need to get new shoes. My sneakers have a hole in the top - and are not waterproof (were not before the hole either).. Hard to find waterproof ones, so finding good ones for New England winters is kind of hard. Anyhow, need new shoes. Even my furry inside boots have worn holes in the soles, though not all the way through, and I have to get insoles for these at least.
Ok, but for now.. time to get to bed. I went to bed at 5 AM and had to get up at 7 to take my son and neighbor's kids to the bus.. walking down the hill with them in the snow. This always revs me up, so now it's 9 AM and I'm still awake and really really need sleep.
Before I forget, I want to say thank you to IMSUZEEQ for the support!!!
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