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Looking back, moving forward

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I took some time last night to look back over the last 2 1/2 months. I started with Spark in December and was highly motivated and successful. Then it happened. Work got busy, the weather was too bad to walk outside, and I got sick. My motivation slowly was wearing away and I could feel myself getting sucked back into bad habits. I'd have glimmers of motivation again, and would do well for a day or two until things got busy again.

So last night i reflected. What worked when I was motivated and what happened to lose it? What did I really want? After all, if I don't really want to be healthy and invest in my future, then why am I trying? I really let myself just sit in the quiet and think.

I came to the realization that I do want to be healthy and that I was going about it all wrong. I was focused only on the scale and losing weight and on meeting unrealistic goals. WHen the scale didn't move (or moved in the wrong direction) or I didn't meet my goals, I allowed myself to say, "See, you can't do it. It's impossible."

Then I thought about all I had done over the last 2 1/2 months. I am walking and exercising more that I ever have. I am cooking at home more and eating healthier. I am getting support from Spark and from friends here at home. Overall, I've made positive changes. So maybe my goal isn't to lose weight (that is still a good thing) but is to live healthy.

It will still be a challenge as I make changes, but if I focus on being healthy overall, I can't let myself give up when some aspects aren't perfect. I realize that I won't get to my goal weight as quickly as I wanted (which was unrealistic anyway) and I won't be running a marathon soon, but I am on my way to getting there!
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  • SISSIE21
    You know what really helps me when I'm not losing weight? Instead of concentrating on that as my success marker, I concentrate on my healthy behaviors. So, I have eating 3 healthy meals and 2 healthy snacks a day, exercising or walking 45-50 minutes a day and a few more. These behaviors are things I can control, the weight doesn't always come off the way we want it to. If I follow them most of the time, I am being successful.
    And to stay focused, I track everything good or bad, healthy or not. And connect a lot with spark friends. So it sounds like you are doing all of those things, so you are successful! I promise you, if you continue the weight will come off. Just keep going. And believe me, you are talking to someone who thought it was impossible. But day by day, I am seeing that it is possible to do this. Together we can do this! Just hang in there! Don't give up!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1740 days ago
    You've hit on the magic answer. I don't know what your original weight goal was, but sometimes I read them on other Sparkers' pages and think to myself about how unrealistic they are and that the person is focusing on the wrong thing.
    It's all about living a healthy life. The weight will reach an appropriate level as an outcome. Glad you took the time to reflect and blog about this - a good reminder for us all.
    1741 days ago
    It sounds like your reflecting time was well spent! Now you're ready to proceed on your journey! March on!!!!

    Keep on keeping on!
    1741 days ago
    Thanks for reminding me about this. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1741 days ago
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