Wednesday, March 06, 2013
I am ambivalent about my Spark People journey and my need for surgery. I have suffered a dreadful two days of turmoil trying to reconcile my head and heart to this change in plans. I believe I have come to a conclusion that is in my best interest. Despite my doctors sense of urgency, my medical background and research has determined that this procedure is purely for my convenience. This surgery only has minor possible health issues (if any) that it may or may not correct.
Hence my stress and grief regarding this surgery has been unfounded. I choose to post-pone the surgery until after April 21 so that I can (and will) complete my first 5k walk! This walk has become so important to me that it created such distress in my life at the thought of cancelling, well, I won't have it. (for those who may understand, the surgery was for stress incontinence) So I may get a little more wet then just from sweat during this 5k! So be it. It won't be any more different that the last 5 years!
SO, thank you all for your concern and advice! I feel my life is more blessed by having you in my life, even if it is virtual!