i cant believe how hard this is
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
it seemed like it was easier for me to lose weight the first time i tried to and this time is much harder to control. i dont know why that is. i have some clues i guess. life has been esspecially hard lately andive recently quit smokig and other things. the death of my grandparents and the loss of my children has been devastating on me. today i went over my calories by almost 200. but i guess thats not the worst thing ever. in the past i would have binged because i went over the calories for the day and used that as an all or nothing excuse. so i am making baby steps. just as i had done when i stopped smoking. i sadi i was quitting but still had a half ciggerate at night when i was about to go to sleep every night for a week. now i have been smoke free for 16 days and for the most part dont crave cigs. i think this slow and gradual thing might work for me, so i am not giving up hope about my weight loss! its hard nut i can still do it!