Tuesday, March 05, 2013
I am missing him terribly! If you want even an inkling of an idea as to what a military spouse/significant other goes through on these things called deployments, watch the Jeep commercial from the Superbowl. It won't even show you half! So here I lay, in bed, after Skyping with the most amazing man I've ever met, wanting to cry my eyes out! I miss him so much! It's like they take a piece of your heart and ship it so far away from you, that you have no hope of reaching it. It doesn't get better with the nightmares of him never coming home, or worse, dying in my arms... that was last night's dream. I woke up super-early thinking it was real. I could hardly go back to sleep. When I finally did, I couldn't help but wake up every few minutes just to make sure it was all a dream. Plus, it's so hard to prepare for the rest of your lives together, when half of you isn't even here. They always tell me the first deployment is the worst, and that things will get better... I hope they're right!
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:6-7 (NKJV)