20,000-24,999 SparkPoints 24,287

You have Wept in the Ear of the Lord Numbers11:18

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

The rain on my window tonight reminded me of this scripture and all of the tears I have shed into the ear of the Lord. I am sure the Lord must think that I am trying to drown Him/Her with the river of tears, especially these last two weeks.
Just when I think that I am making progress ( the day without tears last week) I find that I am farther back, or so it seems, than I was a month ago. Maybe it is because people think that I should be past this and aren't as "concerned" about me, maybe it is because this is just the way my grief will manifest itself, maybe ..who knows what or why. I know that I am sad and feel so alone and I have to adjust someway sometime.
I don't want to rush the process but I am physically tired and am concerned that my tears will cause people to turn away not knowing what to do or how to help. I will see my dr. next week sometime and try to talk to him. I say try because sometimes the words don't come, just tears.
Lord, I have cried so many tears and flooded you with the. I ask that you wrap me in your contentment, dry my tears, and help me move forward in Your peace, knowing that Ed is with You and that we will be together again one day.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • JO88BAKO
    I'm glad you are going to see the Dr. Maybe he will have some ideas for you. Don't worry about other people or what you think they may think. You are the important one here. You are the one who is feeling so sad and that's ok. You have lost the love of your life. Chances are, they haven't walked in your shoes.
    My new profile pic is a fossil we found on the beach. We took it to the marine biology at the university to get it identified. They said it is either a whale or sea cow (extinct) rib. It is 1-15 million years old.
    Hope you have a good day tomorrow. Hugs!
    1812 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.