The past week I did pretty well. I ate healthy all week and worked out too. Then the weekend came mixed in with my TOM and my final in my class and all my hard work went out the window. I was too exhausted to work out and I was craving really bad food. I made some good decisions too but for the most part I just didnít care. I wanted to get past TOM and not punch a stranger in the face. On top of all that I was nursing my poor Becca who had to have some minor surgery and seeing her all sad and in pain over the weekend was really hard on me. Iím so glad sheís feeling better.
So to sum it up; my week was good and my weekend blew. I felt like poop and just wanted to lounge on the couch in my pjs and stay there all day under a blanket.
The worst part is that is has now spiraled into bad eating Monday and Tuesday. Now Iím anxious about my ability to balance work and school. I told myself I would workout 5-6 times a week and I have lots of reading and homework to do so it seems overwhelming fitting it all in. When Iím studying I feel guilty because I feel like I should be working out and when Iím working out I feel guilty because I feel like I should be studying. Iím unable to decide one way or the other what I should do and I end up immobile and not doing either. Not good.
I know this wonít go away until I come up with some sort of plan to deal with this and why Iíve put it off for so long boggles my mind but I guess thatís what I do. Instead of dealing with the issues I usually eat to make myself feel better. Well thatís over. It stops now.
My next step is to plan my meals for the rest of the week.
Breakfasts: yogurt , fruit, granola or oatmeal, fruit and nuts
Lunch: Salads with chicken, crackers with laughing cow and a piece of fruit
Snacks: apples with almond butter or string cheese
Dinners: tortilla pizzas or sandwiches with soup
Next I have to figure out how to balance work and school. Instead of working out 5-6x after work Iíll try to make it 3-4 x and Iíll do most of it during lunch at work so that when I get home I can focus on school.
Tue: Read 1st chapter, do Biggest Loser Walking DVD which is only 18 minutes
Wed: yoga for an hour after work
Thursday: elliptical during lunch, read chapter 2
Friday: Elliptical during lunch
Sat: Read final chapter, do Jillian Michaelís Ripped in 30 DVD
Now that I have in place to help me succeed I feel much better. I know I can do this. Itís not bigger than me. I just had to face it head on and come up with a plan that works for my life right now. This plan literally took my 20 minutes to decide and write down and itís eased most of my anxiety. I seriously donít know why I just didnít deal with this sooner. Although to be honest it took be a little bit to figure out what was causing the anxiety. That took the longest but Iím getting better and better at identifying this. Major win for me.
WEIGH IN RESULT #9
Starting Weight 2013: 217.8
Last week's weight: 207.8
Current Weight: 207 (-.8) Fair enough.
2013 Weight Loss: -10.8
Total Weight Loss: -26
Now onto my weekend eats. Ugh!
Breakfast: Nothing. I slept in until about eleven. TOM makes me exhausted and I could have kept sleeping if Rich hadnít showed up.
Lunch: I made myself a turkey sandwich on rye with deli turkey, reduced fat cheese, light mayo, spicy mustard and avocado along with some reduced fat kettle chips.
Treat: Chocolate with cookie butter. I split it with Rich.
Dinner: Stuffed pepper. I stuffed them with lean turkey and couscous. Yummy!
Extra: Delicious Kinky Liqour mixed with diet sierra mist. This Kinky stuff is so addictive and delicious. Iím usually not a drinker but I literally drank half the bottle myself. UhmÖperhaps it was too good.
This was close to 1,000 calories in sugary alcohol. Geez!
Snack: Had a few handful of chips with hummus.
Workout: None, I was too dang tired.
Total Calories: Didnít track
Calories Burned: 0
Breakfast: One vanilla chai waffles with light syrup, and almond milk to drink.
*forgot to take a pic*
Lunch: Rich and I went to California Pizza Kitchen. We started with the veggie tortilla rolls which we split.
Then I had a cup of tortilla soup
My main course was zucchini shrimp fettuccini for only 550 calories.
Snack: Berries with Greek yogurt and honey
Dinner: Pizza made on a flat out wrap with turkey pepperoni and reduced fat cheese.
So had I stopped here I would have been fine but then I started feeling anxious.
Dessert: Peanut buster parfait from DQ
This sucker has over 700 calories. Holy WTF?
Extra: Eggs, toast, avocado on toast and peanut butter filled pretzels.
Workout: None, still too tired.
Note to self: You need to deal with stress right away. As soon as you feel it, you need to identify it and figure out what you can do to fix or alleviate the cause of this. Had you done this sooner everything you ate after dinner on Sunday would have never happened. Anxiety and stress calls for an action plan. Being frozen in indecision and sitting there in inaction and immobile will not help you reach your goals. You canít ignore your issues you have to deal with them right way.
My motto for this week: Feel, identify, plan and act. No more indecision.