Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Seems so easy. Should be so easy. Just pick one and then do it. Right?
Some days it feels like the commitment needs to be renewed on a minute-to-minute basis.
Who knew it could take so much energy? That it could be so very difficult to do something so very simple?
Today has been one of those days. You know; THOSE days. I did okay food-wise at work. I got my walk in, I tried to keep my positive outlook.
But I was also feeling stressed and overworked, Couldn't make myself go to the gym, not when I had a desk full of overdue cases. Couldn't make myself leave work at quittin' time either. Which makes it the 9th day in a row that I work late (yes, my family is so happy about that).
I had a plan in place. Exercise, stick to my calorie range and I had also picked a brand new habit: to reward myself for my accomplishments. But what about when I don't feel like I've accomplished anything more than just surviving the day? What's the reward for that?
I came home so tired I felt like I might fall asleep between one step and the next. Literally. Still, the kids expect attention - a smile, hugs, praise, and "look at my drawing, mamma!" And I love them, so I bend over backwards to give it to them.
And then I hit the chocolate. And blew off my PT training. And had a glass of wine.
Some days are just hard.
Habits don't form easily. Sometimes you need to take it a minute at a time. And sometimes you just give up on this day and vow to do better the next.