Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Ok, well not really a disaster, but nothing like I planned.
Disney World, where dreams come true. The place where magic happens. So how could such a wonderful place be a disaster? Well, in my own wonderful world of planning and researching to have a fun, savory yet healthy vacation, I underestimated the power of the negative voice. Not my own negative voice, whom I fight daily, but of family. We invited a family member to join us on our vacation. This person was not in the least bit interested in my or my families health goals. It was an emotionally tense time that caused stress levels to run out of control. I did the best I could when I could, but still came back with extra weight. I was mortified that I put on weight that I had worked so hard to lose. So I gave myself a break when we returned home, some time to recover from such a stressful vacation. Time to get my mind back to where it needs to be.
I realized that it was not entirely my fault! I was fully prepared to take on Disney World in the healthiest way possible. But I had not prepared myself for the inevitable pressure to just ditch the healthy choices. Pressure from family is the hardest to deal with. I think at some point everyone will cross that bridge. It was very hard for me to understand why our family just didn't get it. You would think someone would want to help you when you are trying to get healthy. Not sabotage you, laugh at you, and belittle every thing about the healthy lifestyle you want to live. Now don't think I'm not a strong person and won't stand up for myself and my family. Because I truly am. Unfortunately this situation was not seen as standing up for myself it was seen as being dis-respectful and a know-it-all. Ugh, big Ugh!! It was a no win situation.
We did not get to see everything we planned to, we did not get to ride all the rides we wanted, and didn't get the magic we hoped for. But life is about experiences. And an experience it was! A lesson learned about how your negative voice doesn't just live inside you but is all around waiting to prey on you. A lesson that health and the ways of healthy living need to be learned by everyone! Unfortunately the ignorance of a healthy lifestyle leads to close mindedness and judgement of others who are trying to pursue their own health.
This journey I am on is going to be a hard one. I've been tested, I failed, and have learned my lesson. I am climbing back up and ready to do this! I can not fall to the negativity and pressure of those that do not want to see me succeed. I can not let my health deteriorate. I can not put on any more weight! It's time to do this, and be ready to defend myself this time. I can not change the world or how it thinks. But I can change myself and be the example.