I am so frustrated.

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

What do I have to do to make it understood that LOSING WEIGHT is not the only solution or as SIMPLE of a solution as these doctors and medical professionals would like to think!?!?

My cholesterol is high. One of my liver counts is high. Another count is high, but I am not sure which count it is.

My blood pressure runs high, but it's maintained and controlled with Lisinopril.

I just had a sleep study done, and they found mild Apnea. The preliminary results are in, and she hasn't yet seen an official report because the guys printer and computer aren't working well together right now. OKAY???? So, the person from the doctors office says "It looks like the main things that will help with this is getting the blood pressure under control and losing the weight." Yes, okay.

My weight is one of my MAJOR concerns, but I cannot exercise if I have NO ENERGY. I started trying to lose weight last year and gave up after LIFE happened...but even then, my doctor saw me struggling with my weight, while exercising and eating properly. No, I haven't been able to maintain an exercise regimen for numerous reasons. Energy, or lack thereof has been the main...right along with lack of time (I am in school fulltime, and I am also a fulltime mom to a 5 year old who has not started elementary school yet due to her birthday...) But even without the exercise, I haven't been eating crap food. I eat a pretty healthy diet considering where I live, how we live, and what I am surrounded by. I love my fruits and veggies. I don't eat tons of fried foods. I am a southern girl, so there are some, but I rarely eat anything fried in lard or shortening. That only happens when daddy cooks out once in a blue moon over the fire pit or gas cookers at his house...and even then, I eat smaller amounts due to the fats. At home, if I fry things, I pan fry with vegetable or olive oil. I use low fat margarine or spreads.

I shouldn't have continuously GAINED weight at the rate in which I have. It doesn't make sense. The doctor has noted the gain in weight...I am considered obese. I hate it. I hate who I am. I remember how I thought I was fat in high school...standing 5'5" and weight 135 lbs. soaking wet. YES, I THOUGHT I WAS FAT. I regret it all now. I would do just about anything to be that weight again....I'd just rather be healthier in the way I maintain the weight...instead of skipping meals and eating the way I did then.

I just feel so matter what I want, no matter what I do...I feel like I am failing at it all....and I hate it.
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  • TEHF00F
    NR1982 has a point, it would be a good idea to get your thyroid levels checked. Its just a simple blood test, and for me, once I transitioned to the correct dosage of synthroid I've had a lot more real energy on a daily basis. Your combination of no energy and low-calorie diet resulting in weight gain sounds a lot like what my body went through before the doctor figured out that it was hypothyroid. Don't let it go on too long without checking, as I didn't take action until my body stopped digesting food and spent a whole bunch of money on expensive tests because they thought I was having organ failure when what was really happening was that my body was slowly shutting down thanks to my sluggish thyroid. Whether it's hypothyroid or not, when your body feels run down before you even start your day, it can be a painful hurdle to get out of bed, let alone fulfill all your daily chores AND a workout. Just know that there are potential solutions to your body feeling this way, and that it's not a failure on your part when your body is fighting against you. You CAN turn it around and feel good again!
    1824 days ago
  • NR1982

    Just out of curiosity, have they tested your thyroid or vitamin d levels? The doctors have been watching mine for over 10 years. My mom had her thyroid removed when she was about 25 since it was overactive. My vitamin d level was 13 when they tested it and they said it should have been around 213 or so. They had me take a prescribed dosage for about 2-3 months and retested and it didn't change much. The dr thinks that is part of my issue. Still no real increase and I take it on a daily basis but I may need to up how many I take. The dr also recently put me on prozac to see if it can help with my fatigue. It helps out a bit since I am not always tired anymore but one must limit caffeine intake with it. I've always had issue drinking coffee and it making me tired instead, same thing with energy drinks. Go figure. The prozac is used for many different types of issues like eating disorders, fatigue, depression, anxiety, etc. I only recently started using it over the last few months since the doctor thought it might help. I remember telling the doctor, "I'm sick of living my life tired and always wanting to sleep. I can sleep all I want when I am dead". They are also testing me for mono, lyme disease and auto-immune diseases like lupus. The mono one will only tell them if the person has ever had it in their lifetime which is what the doctor found with me. Mono can reactivate certain symptoms throughout a person's lifetime. I never even knew I had had mono. Hope some of this info helps! I always thought I was alone too. I hope the doctors can figure out the issue. Sending you some energy and spark. Have a great day! emoticon
    1836 days ago
    You're not alone. There are so many people that deeply understand your frustrations and battles. Don't give up as hard as it seems because you'll end up regretting that in the end as well. Everyday is a new opportunity to start fresh. You'll conquer this.
    1839 days ago
  • EWL978
    But, you're not spite of everything you are at the best place to be today... just keep on keeping on... we're here for you and we understand. I know that I have had my ups and downs...and that I don't exercise, almost not at all EVER!!! And, yes, I'm lots older than you...but I live alone. Try cooking for one and eating it all alone.

    Does the doc suggest anything further for you? Or is he just satisfied that you're gaining weight and he wants you to lose it? I'm not a medic, so I can't help you out there, but some of them (and I saw it in my own doc) just don't know what to say and how to treat this....and maybe you need to ask him for some further help or recommendations for it. Like....a nutritionist, a class of some kind, a program you can try, AND, maybe a different doctor?? I 'm not saying you should quit, but if some time passes and you don't get any real help from the doc you have, I do think that maybe you need some advice from him or look for it somewhere else?? emoticon
    1839 days ago
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