Why is staying on the band wagon so hard for me? I re-read past blog posts that I've written, and it's still the same old stuff. I'm really going to get serious this time... I've lost 'X' number of pounds... blah blah blah. I am so tired of being this fat, lazy, unmotivated women. I turned 30 yesterday, and physically, my life is not so different. I REALLY want to stop over eating, I REALLY want to lose weight, I REALLY want to have a healthier lifestyle. Why is it so hard?
Now that I've ranted a bit, let me tell you why it's so hard. It's because I've been trying to do it on my own... relying on myself, and other people as motivators. There's nothing wrong with using other people to get me motivated to become a happier, healthier me! I need to rely more on God, and His Word and His promises to get me through this, first and foremost. Those that He has placed in my life to help motivate me and hold me accountable will not only encourage my physical body to make right choices and have a healthier lifestyle to do His good ad mighty work, but they will also encourage me spiritually... edifying me as a daughter of the King.
I'm trying something different. Every time I have a craving for something bad, I'm going to pray, praise the mighty name of Jesus, and get into His WORD. I already ate badly today for lunch, but starting now- I no longer want to lose weight so that I can look good, or to bag myself a man. I want to be happier and healthier so that God, who began a good work in me, can complete it. How can I go about the Father's business, taking care of others, if I can't even take care of myself?
So...those who are reading this, my apologies for not getting on here in a while. I really do want to start "Sparking" regularly. It might take me a while to get into a schedule, but I will try my hardest. Also, to those who read this, I would like your prayers. Prayers to make me stronger than my cravings for unhealthy food. Stronger than my low self-esteem. Stronger than my stinkin' thinkin'.
Be blessed my lovelies, and if there's anything you need, you can always call on me! I'll be there... to encourage you and edify you! "You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!"