Tuesday, March 05, 2013
This topic is a good one for me today. If you ready my blog from yesterday you know I had a bad scale experience and considered, if only for a moment, I did actually consider throwing in the towel on this whole lose weight and get healthy thing. But, that was yesterday. Today is a completely different story. One day: depression, self-loathing, doubt, frustration, anxiety. The next: top-of-my-game, raring to go, psyched up, happy, self-confident, ready to try new things. Thus is my roller-coaster ride you lucky people get to witness and be a part of. Hang on tight, it gets scary.
And what causes this bipolar craziness? The scale! My mood is attached to that little electronic read out. Now granted, I am a savvy enough dieter to expect the normal fluctuations and have a tough enough skin to not let most of such sad and occasional and unwarranted increases in weight freak me out. I weight myself at the same time every morning and it's mostly good news. But now and then a gain comes along that is too big to ignore and since it usually follows a night of revelry and gastric enjoyment for which I am already feeling somewhat guilty, I let it drive me nuts. Luckily, this does not happen very often. Maybe once, twice a month? And yes, I do manage to recover, get my weight back down but it does take time and it does end up being a set-back and I am not where I should be when I should be there. And it doesn't always follow a night of dinner out. sigh.
For the most part, day to day, I do just great. I don't question working out, I just do it. I don't agonize over food, I just eat the healthy food I've bought or if we're out, I automatically search for the healthiest options available. As long as we're not traveling or attending events, I do just great. I've got great habits that see me through each day. I can loose weight and get healthier if I just do what I need to day each and every day. So, my roller-coaster is mostly hills, tall climbs with great views. Click-clack, click-clack, click-clack. Now let's just do what we can to not let that scale make us crest this hill. Upward, to the clouds!