Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Sparkies.... I have been gone so long, even after I promised I would get my head back in the game and get back on track.
The thing is, life happened. In a BIG way.
I am on the cusp of some major changes. I still can't believe this is happening, that my life is really headed 180º from where it was just 2 short months ago.
In January I met the love of my life. I'm not kidding.. it was RomCom level love-at-first-sight. Can't-live-without-you love. Once-in-a-lifetime love. I still don't know how it happened, it's like the undeniable force of nature is pulling the two of us together. I've never been so happy.
Thus, major change #1: I broke up with the BF I've been living with for 3 years. As you can imagine, it was tough and severly stressful. He took the news rather well, I must say. It was almost as if it were mutual.
Major change #2: I'm leaving Atlanta and moving to Virginia to be with my love. If you asked me 2 months ago, I would've said I could see myself living in Georgia for the rest of my life. But now there's no question... I would live in a tent in Antarctica to be close to him. So I gave roomie notice, I've packed up all my stuff, I've canceled my memberships to the gym and track club.
Which brings us to major change #3: Obviously, I'm leaving the job that I really like. I'm about 85% positive that I'll be able to take a position at Headquarters and stay with the company (and take a significant promotion) but as of this morning, I have no gainful employment lined up in VA. Scary stuff. However, don't freak out.. my baby's not gonna let me starve. But I've never really liked the idea of being a "kept woman" so priority numero uno is to land a job. Working on it!
Major change #4: This is the one that freaks me out the most. He's got kids. Right now things are up in the air on when he'll get to see them, but in an ideal world every weekend there will be a 6-yo and 2-yo running around the house. I've always said that I lack any maternal instinct, so I'm very worried that the I won't be able to relate to the kids and they won't like me. But.. I guess I'll have to cross that bridge when I get there.
Sooooo... yeah. HUGE life events have unfurled.
I've been keeping up with exercise pretty well. Obviously I won't be here for the 15k in April, so long training runs haven't been happening, but I've been taking classes and running around the neighborhood for now. My nutrition (except for recently) has been ok enough to keep me in maintainence range. So I didn't fall off the wagon while I was away.. but as you can imagine I had too many things swimming in my head to be able to sit down and write a nutrition blog.
This past week I've not been very good at all though, and I've got nip it in the bud. Freggie servings are all but nonexistant. I'm eating out almost every meal (I'm still in the house with ex-BF and roomie, so it's kinda weird to cook, plus I haven't been grocery shopping since I'm leaving soon). I can't tell if I'm overeating because I'm stressed with all the changes and errands looming in the future, or if maybe I'm coming down from that "can't sleep/can't eat" lovesickness. Who knows.. but I definitely had a binge last night. However, it got me back to Spark! I promised myself as I was washing the container that had previously held 2 cups of pasta, that I would get back on track first thing this morning. So here I am!
I'm nervous about putting on some love weight. I could see myself skipping the gym to stay in bed and snuggle all weekend. One good thing is he's a Crossfit instructor, so fitness is one of his favorite activities. But... with Crossfit comes Paleo/Primal diet.. and I have no idea how I'm going to cook for this boy! It's so restrictive, and waaaaaay too much sodium/cholesterol in my opinion. And with cooking being my favorite hobby... it'll be a rocky transition I'm sure, but we'll figure it out.
Well... that's what I've been up to. Falling in love, uprooting my life.. no big deal.