I really like running. Long distance just seems to fit me. No "racing" no pressure just a nice LONG run. Funny when you train for a marathon you can run 15 miles and not think twice(unless its hilly) I am not fast, I can comfortably run 10 miles at a 9:30 pace, and hope to run a 10:30-11min mile the entire 26.2. Fingers crossed.
My long run route this weekend was 3x around an airfield which=6.5 miles. On my 2nd lap about half way through I noticed a shadow behind me. I moved over and slowed down to let them pass. WELL now. This gal passed and smugly looked at me like she accomplished something! I wanted to scream "Hey I just ran 10 miles with 10 to go"! But didn't. When I noticed her skirt away from a puddle I knew I had to smoke her. I mean really show her up. I passed her on a hill and kept up the pace for 2 miles straight before I looked and noticed she was no where in sight!
Why was I so aggressive? Why did it bother me that she looked at me that way? Maybe she didn't? She was a new runner, I could tell. No its not that I was wearing compression tights and she wasn't, I could just tell. Maybe because marathon training makes you kinda nutty. I couldn't bare to have a newbie pass me when "I" am training for a Full, I mean that is outlandish!!!!! I wake up at 5 am to run so I can run before the kids wake, I run in the rain, I run in snow, I run in wind, I run with a sore foot, I run with a sore knee, I run my driveway circle to get those last few tenths,I run at night, I run , I run , I run. See nutty.
My crazy running behavior made me think. Why am I not this dedicated to my nutrition? I was not so long ago. I made sure I ate something green ant every meal and mayo? My lord NO!
Now I eat like I will never eat again and have actually GAINED weight training! Its so obnoxious. I work out really hard and see zero results. Wait I guess I can run for hours straight
I wanna be motivated to eat less. Just like that runner I passed. I want that same drive to eat less as I do to run. Motivation, drive is what I need.
I was watching Biggest loser last night and found my self resenting the whole show. I need to lose 20 pounds, not 100 and I cant seem to do it. Maybe i need a ranch?????
I am trying to stay positive, I try not to resent people who seem to lose weight effortlsy. And I do know that I do not look oh so bad. But I need to get a handle on my portions! I am on a taper week so I am going to keep my cals on the lower side. Lets see if it works.
Trying not to hate my body.....even though I know I look so top heavy
Loving when the babies state they wanna run a marathon!
Keeping the girls healthy and active is motivating me to change. I gotta run with them when I am older!
I am cleaning up our long run meals
Grabbing fruit and berries instead of plantain chips
Instead of eating a sleeve of thin mints after my long run, I am opting for a Cliff Chocolate Mint Bar!
Finding new respect for crocs. Ohhh sore feet
Taking the girls for a bike ride AFTER my run!
I have the education and knowledge. Now I just have to insert the drive!