Tuesday, March 05, 2013
What's my motivation behind losing weight? the spark coach asked this morning. Well that's easy, I thought. I want to feel good physically and not feel so ashamed at how I've let myself go. The second part of that sentence is hard to see in writing. It's admitting to myself ( and maybe others) how much of what others think about me drives my actions. And then spark coach asked the question above.
What a question. This quest for weight loss has been with me for as long as I can remember. And somewhere in the back of my mind I've imagined nirvana at the end of the quest. But guess what? I'll still be a full time working mother of two school aged children running wife and nurse who never seems to have enough time or energy. Wait I WILL HAVE MORE ENERGY. In fact I already do. And my attitude is better. And my confidence will overflow. And maybe I'll stop comparing myself to others!
I was trying to put together one of those motivational collages but haven't done it yet. Didn't see any pictures until the other day. It was a sports ad and the lady in it had on a one piece bathing suit and was doing something sportish. She had a muscular body and it wasn't that so much as her face. She looked like a serene warrior. That's what I want to be. And although I will be fighting against school project deadlines and the cost of gas and food and my own self image... I WILL be kickin ass.