Monday, March 04, 2013
I always found it really silly that my female friends and family members would go on a sudden fitness sprint as they prepared for their weddings. Really I found everything about preparing for weddings silly, but I never considered myself the romantic type either. But in particular, the fitness thing was so weird, especially for those who hadn't been regularly exercising before. And now I'm getting married. So guess what- I'm on a fitness sprint. I find that it's about half vanity- I want to look fantastic in my wedding dress. The other half is about starting a healthy life with my soon to be husband. I wouldn't say we're particularly unhealthy- we eat too much sugar and we're less in shape now than we were when we met, but we exercise semi-regularly, and we try to keep our diet within limits. We're both within healthy ranges for all indicators- weight, body fat, bmi, plus cholesterol, etc. But for me at least, there's a bit more to it than eating certain foods and burning so many calories. First, I dislocated my knee in October, and it's still a wreck. I'm determined not to limp down the aisle, and to be able to have a first dance with my husband. Second, a probably most important about all of this, I've struggled with eating disorders and body image issues most of my life. Doing the diet, weight loss thing inevitably turns into this weird competition with myself over how many calories I can cut. Always thinking that if I'm willfull enough, and only if I am, I can be as skinny as... well I don't know, but really skinny. And that's not healthy. I want to look good in my wedding dress and I want to feel that I look good, and I want to do that while being healthy- physically and psychologically. I've never been able to achieve that balance, and maybe I won't be able to this time either, but I think this is the first that I've really wanted it. So I'll try, and maybe that will be enough.
So today, I worked out too much probably. I did the Daily Hiit HiitMax Sexy Booty Shape Up: (http://www.dailyhiit.com/gall
ax-6#.UTVX5KWv3Bw) in the morning, and after work did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the spin bike. I hurt everywhere. Tomorrow I'll do less. My plan is to do Bodyrock 10/16/2009 (http://www.bodyrock.tv/2009/1
-16-2009/) in the morning and just 30 minutes of cardio in the afternoon. Might still be too much, but I'll see how I feel after that.
Here's to a new start.