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Unsqueezed

Monday, March 04, 2013

I'm part of a 17 week spring/summer challenge that started a few weeks ago. My heart isn't quite in it yet but I'm biding my time until I can focus more. I haven't had a moment to complete any of the challenges so far (sorry guys) but when I read the challenge email for week 3 I knew I had to make the time. They asked us to make a vision board to picture where we want to be in the spring & summer and I started typing into Google Images words like "confidence, free flying, conscious eating, and power". Not so much the typical "get fit, get thin" images one might expect. I realized that I had hit home when I found the image of the lone high heel that bore the message "unsqueezed". And with this image, the vision board began.

I want to feel unsqueezed. Unsqueezed from drama, unsqueezed by stress, unsqueezed by pressures of deadlines and feelings of being not-enough and fear and money-concerns and this heaviness that there is in my being, my body, my heart.

I don't want to be left with the negative truths in this space that I am residing.

My friend's mother is dying.

I still feel as if I am going to be consistently recovering from the cancer that is gone from my body.

My father can no longer remember where I live.

And above all, I can't get past the feeling that something is missing, is wrong, is being stuffed down the deep dark hole for fear of finding the light.

And through all of this, I am okay. Because I can do the small things that get me through today. I can make choices to not let things get to me, not let them overpower me. It's incredibly hard to look up from the ground as the choice to fall, to fail, to quit, is easy. The choice to fly however is staggeringly difficult and more than worth it in the end. It's the big picture that is built one tiny snapshot at a time. A mosaic of good intentions, uplifting choices, a lightness of being that starts with the smallest step, and the desire to find, through it all, the confidence and power to be.

Unsqueezed.


Week three "springing into action" vision board by me.
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PINK-PEONY 5/5/2013 2:52PM

    I want to put on red pumps and be unsqueezed too! Great blog.

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HOPEFILL 4/21/2013 9:39AM

    A very honest and candid account of what it is to go through life. Sometimes on Spark, we're all bravado.... but at some point, that just doesn't cut it. Hang in - you'll be glad you did. One day these challenges will all be tales of victories past.

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 4/18/2013 9:41PM

    Bravo!

Keep blogging!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 3/30/2013 6:54PM

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MZZCHIEF 3/22/2013 6:15PM

    Great blog, love your writing style as always!

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Mzzchief
PS but are you still monkey-ing around?
update, update, update!
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NANHBH 3/21/2013 1:07PM

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MOPPIT 3/17/2013 1:34AM

    Such a beautiful, meaningful board. I pray you are doing better and are able to feel hope and joy. You are a beautuiful person, inside & out. Our mission is to achieve happiness. After that nothing else really matters and it all falls into pace. i wish you happiness, joy and love. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KDAILEY70 3/14/2013 10:10PM

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SJKENT1 3/13/2013 8:48AM

    Unsqueezed... wow. I have never thought that word would be applied to how anyone would want to feel. But it is so on-target! Unsqueezed... yes. I hope you don't mind, but I'm praying for you. It's the only way I know to help and speak hope.

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DOGSTARDADDY 3/12/2013 12:24PM

    Great thoughts, and something I definitely need to work on.

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KIPPER15 3/10/2013 8:50PM

    Love it! Perfect expression for all the "stuff" squeezing out the joys in our life. emoticon emoticon

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DOGLADY13 3/10/2013 1:49PM

    Excellent image. Keep working on finding the balance and equilibrium you need. It's a lifetime process and like anything, as long as you keep practicing, you will improve and change.

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FANGFACEKITTY 3/10/2013 11:08AM

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I love it. It is very obvious that a lot of thought went into making it. Your vision board makes a very powerful statement.

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LADYHAWKE917 3/8/2013 10:47PM

    So powerful. You a so strong!

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HABITBREAKER 3/7/2013 9:12PM

    Love the idea of being "unsqueezed", you are so strong for everything you are and what you have gone through, but you are making it through!! Thank you for sharing!!

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DR8561 3/7/2013 9:24AM

    "I want to feel unsqueezed. Unsqueezed from drama, unsqueezed by stress, unsqueezed by pressures of deadlines and feelings of being not-enough and fear and money-concerns and this heaviness that there is in my being, my body, my heart. "

I have been feeling just this way for the past few weeks. I'm so glad I found your blog today!

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RANGERALLY 3/6/2013 3:07PM

    You are awesome. HANG IN THERE! I am choosing less squeezedness too. emoticon

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IAMAGEMLOVER 3/6/2013 11:43AM

    All I can say is wow. I am at a loss for words. emoticon

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TANYA602 3/5/2013 1:56PM

    This is one of the most beautiful, and most powerful, vision boards I have seen. Your blog really reached out and touched me and I had to read it twice, and breathe, and come back a day later. You are one incredible woman and so strong in your heart and mind. I send hugs and wishes for you to always find the places in life where you are feel at your best, and unsqueezed.

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FARRAH511 3/5/2013 12:01PM

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AMBER281 3/5/2013 10:42AM

    Love your vision board.

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LEPETITCHIHUA 3/5/2013 9:46AM

    Try this link it can be life changing....

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RYDERB 3/5/2013 8:45AM

    Not only is your Vision board beautiful, but you have a beautiful vision. What a fabulous blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BABYSOX 3/5/2013 8:36AM

    I love your vision board. Keep your focus on the positive and your vision will happen.

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BESSHAILE 3/5/2013 6:01AM

    Love it!

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OLIVIANIGHT 3/5/2013 2:39AM

    Aw I'm sorry things are hard for you right now. Sending lots of long-distance hugs!
But I know you'll get through it and come out the other side stronger, because you're Super-Nix : )

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CAROLIAN 3/5/2013 12:58AM

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KBELLE1224 3/5/2013 12:19AM

    Great blog! Hope you can become unsqueezed! emoticon

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ANNEMAC5 3/5/2013 12:09AM

    Great graphic illustration to show how you feel. Hope writing it down and sharing helps. We all have times when we are squeezes hope this passes for you soon.

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ROCKMAN6797 3/5/2013 12:02AM

    Love the concept, I know you will get there!
You will become unsqueezed....

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IAMWINNING 3/4/2013 10:34PM

    I like you attitude that in spite of everything (and there IS so much right now) squeezing you, you refuse to be squeezed. You simply keep putting one foot in front of another and keep on. You beat cancer, you can do this.

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BROWNSKIN252 3/4/2013 10:27PM

    You are blessed in so many ways. Try to find some type of joy, happiness and laughter in the things that are SQUEEZING away in your life. Having a positive outlook despite the circumstances that happen daily will aid in being UNSQUEEZED. Spring Into Action....love it! Spring Into Action Unsqueezed.....love it more! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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JACKIE542 3/4/2013 9:50PM

    So sorry about everything that is happening right now, sure hope some unsqueezed days come very soon, take good care. emoticon

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4RASCALS 3/4/2013 9:41PM

    I'm sorry to hear that things are tough for you. Your a strong person, I know that you will get through this. Your a fighter..You beat cancer..you can do anything you set your mind to.
I will keep your family and mother friend in my thoughts & prayers. Remember that we are here for you. Let us know if you need something.

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MOMSFIVE1028 3/4/2013 9:02PM

    I so glad you found something to give you that spark (no pun intended) to keep going. Sounds like some good mojo is gonna be happening very shortly.
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EVWINGS 3/4/2013 8:57PM

    With your attitude, you'll never be "squeezed"! Way to go and great vision imagine!!

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NEVERORNOW 3/4/2013 8:54PM

    You are strong, yet all that you've experienced makes you more vulnerable to the hurts of those around you. You'll get thru all of these things, and we're here for you as you deal with the challenges. Hugs and prayers are with your friend and her/his mom. And I'm so sorry for what you're going thru with your dad. Been there, and I know it's hard. You're a special lady, and I'm glad you share your life with is here. You're a blessing. emoticon

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SUSIEPH1 3/4/2013 8:20PM

    So very sorry you are having a such a bad time .. I know you will get through it.
You have already shown that you have the fortitude by your blog ..
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JULESJET 3/4/2013 8:06PM

    Unsqueezed is a really good thing to work towards! Sorry you are having a rough time, hopefully as you work on unsqueezing yourself and your life it will allow you more room to breathe.

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SLENDERELLA61 3/4/2013 8:03PM

    Wishing you many unsqueezed days, weeks, months, years -- a lifetime of being unsqueezed. Sorry you are facing some really tough stuff.... And facing it well..... Doing the little things you need AND writing a beautiful, touching, profound blog. Thanks. -Marsha

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