MONDAY BLOG CHALLENGE: By what do you measure your value as a person? What defines your worth?
This is not an easy thing to write about ,,,,,,,, it takes thought,,,,, and time,, but this is what I came up with:
I measure my value as a person by the things that I have accomplished by how I have touched the lives of others in a positive way, and how I treat other people & animals. My worth is defined by my accomplishments, what I have given back to the world, and by what I present to the world as me.
I came from very humble beginnings (aka poor) but worked my way up through education.... there were so many wonderful teachers that encouraged me and inspired me,,,, eventually I attended and graduated from UCLA ,,,, then Law School. I did go into private practice and made a great living,,,,,, but when I got pregnant with my twin sons,,,, I knew that their was more to life than just money,,,,,,,,, motherhood.
So I quit my well paying job and stayed home for awhile,,, then went back to work for the government,,, where I would get flexibility to go on almost every field trip that my kids had and attend almost every award ceremony. I now am the lead attorney for the child abuse unit... and I love my work because I get to make a difference in the world of a child.
My children are wonderful people,,,, I enjoy talking to them,,, being with them and just hanging out with them...... I am very proud of them and my sister have commented that they think I am a great mother...... which gives me a lot of satisfaction My children are not perfect,,, they have their flaws but they are kind and they stand up for what is right ... I love all 3 of them.
How I present myself to the world,,,,, I am not shy,,,, I am very confident at work,,,, a logical being...... but I believe that I have many facets,,,,,,physical, spiritual, emotional, & intellectual. 1. On the intellectual I am satisfied,,,, my work offers constance change and challenge;
2. Spiritual,,, I have a strong faith in God ;
3. Emotional,,, I have insecurities about my future since I am going through a divorce after a 23 marriage (very tough); I sometimes feel a little lonely,,, it is hard being on my own after so many years of marriage,,,,,, having to care for 3 kids on my own for several months now,,, is tough.
4. Physical,,,, I exercise but am overweight,,, and that bothers me because it affects how I feel about myself..... sometimes,,,,, it also worries me because I want to be healthy and watch my children grow up (yup, I am an "older" mother)..... so it is important for me to move forward on my journey,,, to be healthy.
I also feel insecure about the way I look,,,,, because i want to move forward with my life ,,,, as my soon to be ex husband has moved on from girlfriend to girlfriend,,, and here I am stuck,,,, feeling as if there is no one who would want an old woman like me.
I don't really want to date,,,,, I am a little scared to even open myself to that possibility right now.... I feel alonely sometimes,,,,,, it is hard getting use to being alone.