Monday, March 04, 2013
Today I had a follow-up appointment for an ongoing problem. All told, i need to do some behavior changes, lose some weight, and have a simple surgery. But the surgery will keep me down for six weeks. No straining, no lifting and no exercise. I am freaking out. For several reasons. First, I am losing weight in a positive way that I don't think I have ever done before. I don't want to stop my journey.
Second I will have to put a stop on my first 5K. This might be the biggest issue. I had something I was looking forward to and excited about. I have never done a 5K before and I have never been healthy enough to want to do one. I am so disappointed. I just want to cry. I am crying!
I am freaking out about the changes it will make in my new healthy life style. Even if they are only 6 weeks, but look what I have done in my first 6 weeks! I can't stop this negative thought process. I can't think positive. I just want to eat every thing in sight. I am a rolling ball of emotions. AAAAAARRRRGGGGGGG!