Monday, March 04, 2013
I'm on a team of great women with a lot of challenges. This weeks challenge was to do a new vision collage. I lot of us use the tools at Oprah's webpage. However I'm having trouble posting the link because every time I do it freezes on me.
I know it's hard to read on here. I've also set it as my background for my site. But basically I didn't know what I wanted to do a new vision board about. As I just started browsing through and collecting a few pictures from the Oprah site and some others online it developed. One thing I've been wanting to do lately is to work on developing more fully my relationship with God. I've been a Christian since early adulthood, but I was involved then for 10 years in a very very fundamentalist church. Some have called it a cult. My own study of the Bible, prayer, and learning to trust in my own ability to follow His leading, and not just the pastor's word, led me out of it. But it also left me with deep scars regarding churches. The situation I was involved in taught us that if what we believed we should do did not agree with what the pastor said, we were being deceived by the devil and needed to do what the pastor said. It took a lot to step out on my own and break away. But I still believed and trusted in God and my relationship and would not have gotten through a lot of my things without that. I'm not going to go into more detail except that to truly trust churches has been hard for me since then. I've been involved with some that are good, and filled with good people, but I always kept myself at arms distance and wouldn't let anyone get close to me. I have a close friend now that has truly inspired me, although I don't think she has any idea how much, to let go of some of that and move forward into a new place. So that's what the collage is about. To open myself up more to others and to my spiritual me in general more than I have, and to let go of some of the walls I've built.
This has always been an important part of who I am, now I just want to allow changes for growth in a new way as I move forward in my own journey.