Well.. I am new to this. I have never blogged or shared my struggles with anyone. I figured this is the perfect place to get started. I see lots of other people on here struggling with the same things as me and it feels good to know I am not alone. Anyways, here it goes. I seriously feel like one day I woke up and looked in the mirror and the weight just appeared. I was in denial about my weight gain that I refused to notice that I was packing on the pounds. And then it hit me, like a ton of bricks right in the face. I looked at myself in the mirror and just cried. I couldn't believe that I had let myself go this far. I used to be so healthy. I started to reflect back on the past few years of my life and tried to figure what happened. It all started slowly. Eating out more than usual then late night binges on junk food. Started to feel less motivated and tired all the time and found myself laying on the couch with a bag of chips and pop. I have to add in that I have been dealing with anxiety and depression issues since I was 17. I stopped taking my medication for a few years and found that I was turning to food as comfort, which at the time I never noticed the connection. I have to admit that I did start to notice a difference in my weight at first but just brushed it off. I lived in sweat pants and rarely got into jeans or nice clothes. Then one day I put on my favourite pair of jeans and they wouldnt even go up past my hips!! What a slap in the face that was and even though I was devistated, I still went back to living in sweats and eating like crap and forgot about the whole incident. Time went on and I just didnt feel like doing anything. My friends wanted me to go out with them all the time and I would refuse to go knowing that I had nothing to wear and would feel like crap being around all of them. So now here I am. 3 years later and trying to lose all the weight I put on. I am up a total of 66 pounds and I feel every last pound of it. I am tired all the time, getting to the gym is such a hassle for me and eating right, well thats out the window. Today I am starting a new life. I have made small goals for myself. Today my goal is to walk for 30 mins. I cant expect to lose the weight overnight so I hoping that someone will read this and be my motivation. :)