Monday, March 04, 2013
I will start this journey, so that I might lose,
Is there real basis for this decision to choose?
If I am a loser, will I get what I need,
what shall I lose if I do succeed?
Or better yet, what will I gain,
If I learn to love me an become healthy again?
Brand new clothes with a larger selection in which I may fit,
Is this the real bonus even though I must pay for it?
Are there other benefits I will earn along the way?
What new habits and knowledge shall I find to guide me each day?
When people look at me now as I wonder why they stare,
if I reach my goals, will those same people care?
What goes thru their minds now and what will it be then,
will my appearance scare them away or draw them in come close to be my friend?
Who I am inside, might that change too,
for then my new found confidence and charisma will shine through!
If I donít care about myself, then why should they?
If a remain fat, will they stay away?
Does my obesity say that I care of what my health may be,
or that Iím not worth the effort, not even for me!
If I truly love myself, will I learn better to love them?
Will I become equipped to love another as my friend?
What ways in how I treat them, may I learn along the way?
My kids I can take care of, with the loving ways I learn to care for my body too.
Then they can know better, what it means when I say "I Love You!"
So I will start so that my past, I shall also lose
To correct the neglect, the abuse that I have done to myself is what I chose!
This is a challenge that I shall attack,
To become a big loser and never look back!
Then the sun shall come up and I'll see things in a new way,
for it shall be a bright and happy new day!