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Sunday, March 03, 2013

Man, I feel like it took FOREVER to get over this cold.

My doctor wants me to find time for daily yoga and meditation...I can barely find time to make dinner. I must be doing something really wrong if I can't find much time to do anything even though I only work 3.5 days a week. I do work long days, so those days are often a bust for anything extra. But on the other 3.5 days, I should be able to keep the house clean, exercise, etc. I don't know. Maybe I'm bad at time management. Maybe this whole adrenal burnout thing makes me lazy. Maybe that's just an excuse.

I keep wanting to do something about my garden but I know I'd have to spend money to get it going and I don't want to. Maybe I just need to focus on one part of the garden at a time instead of wanting to do it all - that can be overwhelming. A friend recommended making plans for the front and back and separating each area into sections and making plans for each section. Then, just slowly work through each section and eventually it will all look amazing. I definitely can't wait to be able to spend more time outside. It's getting sunny now, but it's still 40 degrees! Mother nature is such a tease...

TMI: since this blog is partially for therapy, the baby-making part (get used to it): this miscarriage is taking so long. My friend really hurt my feelings on Valentine's Day - I know she doesn't know any better but it was only 3 days prior that I told her I was miscarrying for the second time. Then, the day after V-day, she asked if DH and I had a romantic V-day. I asked her what she meant, and she asked, "did you guys have a lot of hot sex"??? Seriously? I said, "you know I'm miscarrying, right? You were there last time it happened, you know it takes time, right? Do you really think I'd even be thinking about sex while I'm losing a baby?" I know I can't blame her. It isn't her fault. For her sake, I hope she never has to know the pain of losing your baby. I'm taking a zillion supplements now, all in the hopes of helping me get my baby and it is exhausting, lol! But it'll be worth it. I think I'm going to make an appointment to see a specialist in October. If I'm not pregnant and past my 6-7 weeks (which is when I miscarry), I'm going to a specialist. I'm turning 33 in less than two weeks and I don't have forever. Besides, we've been trying actively for over a year and a half now and all I have to show for it is two miscarriages. It may be time to get help from a specialist. I hope it doesn't come to that.

Plans for losing weight: I bought a little day planner so I can write in it and keep track. There's something about a pen and paper that isn't quite the same as a phone app! Right now I'm walking 10,000 steps a day. I haven't gotten back to tracking, and I don't plan to quite yet. Naturopath wants me on South Beach. I should be getting paid tomorrow, so I'll stock up on healthy SB food.
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MORTICIAADDAMS 3/4/2013 9:31PM

    I take too long to get over colds and such too. Obviously we both could use a boost to our immune systems.

You really need the daily meditation and yoga and I think it will actually help you in other areas of your life.

Your friend is on the mark about the gardening work. I'm a huge fan of mulch. You can mulch once or weed all summer.

I don't think most people understand about having a miscarriage and they are fortunate they don't. It's more than just the loss of a child. There are hormones involved and a feeling of loss. My best friend and hubby neither one were very supportive when I had mine. She was a nurse like me and was like - thank God you aborted a defective fetus. True but it was not a happy time for me. Hubby said it was no big deal as it was the size of a jelly bean. I know they cared for me so it's a matter of them not understanding. Empathy comes easier for some people than others.

Good job on the steps. I need to get back on South Beach as well. I'm veering off plan too much.

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PHEBESS 3/4/2013 6:51PM

    Lots of hugs, sweetie - your friend was thoughtless, but, well, stupid too. Didn't think. And I know it hurt, but she probably now feels like an idiot - so put it aside and try to forget, okay?

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CONFUSEDBIRD 3/4/2013 8:44AM

    We are trying different gardens this year. We got a gardening book and it tells what plants u can put down early and then plant different stuff when that season is over. Your grow season out there is so long, so lucky! Growing up with a vet for a dad, he was always so busy and still is. Neither of my parents ever really leave their job it seems. I'm sorry your friend hurt your feelings. I hate the notion that ppl have tons of sex on valentines day in general. I guess I never thought of it that way. I would rather purge on chocolate and feel awesome in that way! lol

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