Sunday, March 03, 2013
Man, I feel like it took FOREVER to get over this cold.
My doctor wants me to find time for daily yoga and meditation...I can barely find time to make dinner. I must be doing something really wrong if I can't find much time to do anything even though I only work 3.5 days a week. I do work long days, so those days are often a bust for anything extra. But on the other 3.5 days, I should be able to keep the house clean, exercise, etc. I don't know. Maybe I'm bad at time management. Maybe this whole adrenal burnout thing makes me lazy. Maybe that's just an excuse.
I keep wanting to do something about my garden but I know I'd have to spend money to get it going and I don't want to. Maybe I just need to focus on one part of the garden at a time instead of wanting to do it all - that can be overwhelming. A friend recommended making plans for the front and back and separating each area into sections and making plans for each section. Then, just slowly work through each section and eventually it will all look amazing. I definitely can't wait to be able to spend more time outside. It's getting sunny now, but it's still 40 degrees! Mother nature is such a tease...
TMI: since this blog is partially for therapy, the baby-making part (get used to it): this miscarriage is taking so long. My friend really hurt my feelings on Valentine's Day - I know she doesn't know any better but it was only 3 days prior that I told her I was miscarrying for the second time. Then, the day after V-day, she asked if DH and I had a romantic V-day. I asked her what she meant, and she asked, "did you guys have a lot of hot sex"??? Seriously? I said, "you know I'm miscarrying, right? You were there last time it happened, you know it takes time, right? Do you really think I'd even be thinking about sex while I'm losing a baby?" I know I can't blame her. It isn't her fault. For her sake, I hope she never has to know the pain of losing your baby. I'm taking a zillion supplements now, all in the hopes of helping me get my baby and it is exhausting, lol! But it'll be worth it. I think I'm going to make an appointment to see a specialist in October. If I'm not pregnant and past my 6-7 weeks (which is when I miscarry), I'm going to a specialist. I'm turning 33 in less than two weeks and I don't have forever. Besides, we've been trying actively for over a year and a half now and all I have to show for it is two miscarriages. It may be time to get help from a specialist. I hope it doesn't come to that.
Plans for losing weight: I bought a little day planner so I can write in it and keep track. There's something about a pen and paper that isn't quite the same as a phone app! Right now I'm walking 10,000 steps a day. I haven't gotten back to tracking, and I don't plan to quite yet. Naturopath wants me on South Beach. I should be getting paid tomorrow, so I'll stock up on healthy SB food.