Sunday, March 03, 2013
Well, honestly, thinking positive is a choice. A choice we must make in order to live from moment to moment when depressed. Add to the choice that tomorrow my doctor will add another medication to my already long list of meds.....an anti-depressant.....and according to the nurse I saw yesterday, in a few days, I should be able to see some difference in my life.
I detest taking more medication but at this point, I will accept that it will help me, that it is only temporary and I will adjust and soon be back to myself. I've always been a serious minded person, always expected the worst from people and situations so that if the worst did not happen then I was pleasantly surprised. Sad but because of things that have happened in my life, I learned that if you expected disappointments then you weren't let down as much. So, having lived with that mindset for so long,
..... how will I think POSITIVE? One moment at a time. One situation at a time. One thought at a time. I will combat the negative with positive......if the day is bleak, I will make myself see joy.
Having a God that loves me even when I don't love myself......positive.
Having a wonderful husband that sticks with me when I'm so undeserving.....positive.
Having a son that is healthy......positive.
Having a roof over my head, a warm bed to sleep in and clothes on my back.....positive.
Having a vehicle that is paid for.......positive.
Having a job.....positive.
Having a place I can come to that will encourage me when I need it most....POSITIVE!
"Thank you" to those of you that are faithful in lifting me up when I'm down, pushing me when I need it and encouraging me always. You are the best! Now THAT'S positive!!!