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Grrr Just HOW Angry Do I Need to Get?

Sunday, March 03, 2013

AARRRRRGGGGH! Ok there now I feel a little better. Really I am feeling fine for the most part as my depression is lifting. The thing is is that I am so frustrated with my weight and how ugly I feel. I HATE that NONE of my dress pants fit. I HATE that MOST of my tops are too tight or too short so that when I sit or raise my arms my back fat and belly hang out. I HATE that ALL my jeans are getting tighter and tighter.

SO...I'm really angry but how angry does one need to get before change is made? I can sit here and complain all day/week/month/year about how I hate my weight and whatnot, but what good is it?

I know in some ways I am making positive changes. I've been doing pretty good at getting my 8 emoticon in and am eating more fruits and veggies.
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Those are healthy steps I am making, but I feel like I need to do more. LIKE MOVE!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

I am taking the stairs when I can instead of elevator and I park far away from stores, so there are little things I am doing. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself. I'm simply frustrated. emoticon

I know anger motivates, so I'm left wondering again just how angry do I need to get. My best guess is when I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. emoticon
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  • 40_4ME4FAMILY
    It has taken me so long to finally find my feet. I've really struggled the past year! How are you doing now? I haven't talked to you in awhile!
    1804 days ago
    As others have said, keep up the great babysteps--all the positive little changes you've already made. Consider adding one new healthy habit (minor change) each week, and blogging or reporting successes and struggles on your teams (like the BBs!)

    And don't forget the mental & emotional workout! Journal about how you're feeling, what leads to joy or anger or fear or satisfaction, etc. And catch as many self-critical thoughts as you can before you utter them. How can you change each one to something empowering? When you want to criticize something, find something else to compliment instead.

    Remember that we strengthen whatever we pay attention to. So keep focusing on the positive activities and steps & the healthy pride you feel at meeting those goals! I'm cheering you on! emoticon
    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    1839 days ago
    Hang in there, sweetie!!! You're already making healthy changes for your body....and you'll continue to make improvements. We didn't put on our weight overnight, and it's not going to go away overnight either....dang it!! emoticon emoticon
    1839 days ago
  • KATI5668
    sometimes a good mad is just the push we need to get us in gear!

    you can do it...just use that energy to defuse...walk..weights or what ever

    but keep the forward motion!

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    1841 days ago
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    1841 days ago
    My boxing game on the wii is awesome when I'm feeling angry! A big stress relief and the benefit of good cardio and muscle building. I'd love to buy a real punching bag and gloves once it warms up. It does sound like you're making the changes you need to make to get back into your clothes though. Maybe take a REAL look at everything and think of ways to improve trouble areas(in your lifestyle..not your body). I tend to justify the junk food I order when we eat out(oh we don't eat out all that often..well I need a treat...I'll do better next time..etc) but in reality we eat out a couple meals a week..on average..and if i'm not doign GREAT the rest of the time..that's just added fat on my body. I can do better and that's one of MY goals. I think you'll get there..sometimes it just takes a lot longer than we want! emoticon
    1841 days ago
    emoticon emoticon I understand the frustration with it all, but it sounds to me like you are doing really well with making small changes. Keep it up, don't get too down on yourself.
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    1842 days ago
    emoticon Spring is just around the corner and longer emoticon and emoticon . Maybe find something new and fun on the internet to try. emoticon
    1842 days ago
  • NEEDBU66
    Take that anger out on the stairs or the treadmill or the punching bag. Get re-committed to the program. Just don't give up or give in. Rootin for ya.
    1842 days ago
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