Sunday, March 03, 2013
I've got to say that as far as food and weight are concerned, I've tripped and fallen on my face again. :(
The last two days (my days off) turned out to be nothing but pure debauchery. I started out well on Friday managing my food and making great choices and being active. That night I went to the North Texas Irish Festival with some co-workers and decided to indulge and enjoy myself - I had two beers, roasted corn on the cob (so far so good), a giant shortbread cookie with fudge in the middle, and Irish stew in a bread bowl. I only ate half of the bread bowl and felt mildly content considering how well the rest of my day had gone and how much walking I was doing. But then some friends invited me out after that and I ended up having two more ciders.
Then yesterday was even worse! I took a friend out to sushi for lunch because it was her birthday, and even though I had the equivalent of three rolls, I thought that was pretty good. For a snack I had a 110 calorie sugar-free latte. But the good parts ended there. We ended up at the liquor store and I ending up spending the last of my luxury fund (I keep money in a tin in my bedroom so I can financially afford fun times with people) of liquor. We went to another friends out and had a gorge fest. I remember having a giant heaping bowl of teriyaki chicken over brown rice (this was easily five servings worth), cheese dip and crackers, taffy, a whole back of air popped chips, and a third of a chocolate bar. That's on top of two White Russians.
I was bad.
The only positive thing I can take away from all that gorging is that I had a really good time this weekend. Most of my adult life and while I was married I felt very lonely and cut off from the world socially because my ex never wanted to go out and we could never afford anything beyond fast food with friends. It's nice to be getting out there and growing in that part of my personality since I've never gotten the chance to. So I guess it's worth it? I can always work the effects of the past two days off, right? At least that's how I'm going to choose to look at it.
So today starts my six day work week, and I'm determined to be on target with my food FOR THE WHOLE WEEK. Haha I know this doesn't sound like much, but I think smaller goals will help me make better progress. I haven't done my first of the month weigh-in or updated my spark page, but I only lost 0.2 pounds for February! That's just terrible! I can't keep this months-long plateau/being of the wagon any longer! March has to see results! So the first step is to make this week fantastic. The goal is to be within my calorie range every single day and to not eat out until payday. Here's hoping I can do it!
In other news, I've been really struggling with my decisions about taking this second job. The more I think about it the more stressed and conflicted I feel. Straight up honest, I don't want to do it. I hated retail and it was terrible enough that I quit without having another job lined up and that was a huge struggle that I saw as worth it. And there would be no guarantee that the company would stick to my parameters of only working in this time bracket for x days and x hours a week. They never did in the past. Plus a really good friend talked to me about it and pointed out I could really drain myself and perform poorly at both jobs, and if the schedules don't sync up for both jobs I could go weeks without a genuine day off to recharge. Plus I would be miserable and stressed and that would have a negative affect on my health and encourage me to revert to stress eating and destroy my changes of meeting my health and weight goals. Those are all very good points. Also she thought it would be a better idea if I focused on my current job and pursuing paths of promotion and such to eventually get pay raises in the near future.
All good ideas. So I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to take the second job after all, even though that means struggling with some financial burdens. Don't get me wrong - without the second job I can get all my bills paid as long as I'm very strict (I think once every four months a paycheck will come up about $189 short, depending on gas prices at my current rate of pay). I won't be able to go out and do a bunch of fun stuff like I did this weekend, but I can still manage to squeeze a VERY small amount into savings and very slowly pursue my dreams of a fat savings account and paying down my debt. But with all of that in mind - how much is my happiness, health, and well-being worth? Sometimes it's really easy for my to neglect my wants and needs over the preferences of my wallet. Really easy.
I'm still on the sick side of things, unfortunately. It feels like all the nasal congestion that's been plaguing me is moving south and settling in my throat and lungs, which is no bueno. Drinking most of the weekend didn't help, I'm sure, but I will probably need to see a doctor in the very near future if it doesn't clear up on it's own. Even though I would love a day off from work to rest and recover (two things I neglected to do for my days off), I can't afford it. Here's hoping that everything works out in my favor as far as that is concerned.
This week another thing I'm going to concern myself with is my food budget. As far as groceries are concerned, I think I've been doing well both with staying in my budget and buying natural, fresh, non-processed foods and making healthy choices. The things that concern me, though, is how much food ends up going to waste and how much of my food budget actually goes to eating out and buying expensive things like sushi and organic salad kits on-the-go. I could be saving a lot of money if I was able to 1.) cut out the eating out and fancy pre-made foods, and 2.) utilizing everything I buy and not letting so much go to waste. This will be a challenge for me to figure out. Should it be an issue of buying my food in 1-week increments in stead of 2? Is making bulk meals causing me to let some of it spoil? I'll have to do some research and see how I can make up for these shortcomings. Do any of you sparkers have any advice for budgeting and food saving? I buy most of my vegetables frozen now and usually freeze meat when I buy it on sale, but how can you do things like fresh raw spinach for salads, or bread?
Well this blog post is getting to be lengthy enough, and I have to leave for work in an hour, which I really don't want to do because my bed looks amazingly comfortable. Haha but time goes on and so much the show of life, so off I go. I hope everyone is having a great wind down to their weekend! I'll be catching up with blogs and such soon!