Sunday, March 03, 2013
I was not looking forward to getting up this morning and launching into Day 2. Day 1 was tough. There's that part where Jillian says "If you think you're going to die, follow Anita" and my inner monologue was going "And how is Anita supposed to jump through the screen to save me Jillian HUH HUH???!!" When I swung my legs over the side of the bed this morning I was greeted with the nice ache from the terror's that Jillian had put me through yesterday. Again, reaffirming my lack of jubilance to do it all over again. Fortunately, I did put my exercise clothes out ready to go on my dresser last night before I went to bed, so they were sitting there mocking me, taunting me "Are you giving up on Day 2 grrrrl? Seriously, it's only Day 2, quitting already are you?" I'll show them. So I snatched those loud-clothes and sneakers, threw them on, queued up the video and away I went.
Honestly, the worst part of the morning was getting the work out started. The battle between skipping it and doing it. Thankfully, I did it. Between yesterday and today I had noticeable improvement in my performance. Yesterday I thought maybe the 5lbs weights were too much, but today I was able to get through each exercise with them. It was challenging, but I could do it. When it came time for Jillian's comment about following Anita if I felt like I was going to die, I was actually feeling OK. I followed the video again with another YogaAmazing video to stretch out some more. Hopefully, this will again combat some of the stiff and sore.
I know this battle between skipping and just doing what we intend is something we all struggle with. We are all too happy and proud when we make the choice we intended. We reflect that we it was the better of the two paths, that in our minds the challenge is more taunting than it actually is to accomplish. However, while I won this battle, I am afraid I will forever be fighting that inner war with myself. I've learned these lessons, I need to keep reminding myself that it's easier to do than I think it is, and take positive steps like putting out my "mocking" clothes the night before to give me added ammunition in each battle, and maybe someday I'll win the war.