Sunday, March 03, 2013
So I totally blew it last week with my food intake. I ate at McDonalds for lunch twice - did not order the "healthier" menu options; I ate the french fries and the cheeseburgers. Then later on, on two different occasions, I returned for an Oreo McFlurry. I also indulged in ice cream at home. ALOT of ice cream.
I got up this morning and hopped on the scale, expecting, of course, to see a five pound weight gain, and had instead gained a pound. On the one hand, I am happy to see that I did not completely undo my healthy eating, on the other hand, I am very disappointed in my lack of discipline over the past week or so.
I can attribute it to a couple of things. These are factors I have struggled with in the past: emotional eating and stress eating. Perhaps they are both the same thing, but I look at them differently. I felt like crying last week when I went to lunch a couple of times, so I went to McDonalds. Perhaps I should have just whipped out the Kleenex and cried it out? There is more stress coming in my job over the next few weeks. Our schedules have been up-ended and I will be working alone one day a week in our department, either a Monday or a Friday, and Mondays are already hell even with two people there. We are getting a new city manager; someone who was terminated from a nearby city for his "militaristic" management style after only eighteen months there. Hopefully I will be able to find another job soon. I am not a quitter by any means, and I cannot afford to become one now.
So...work will continue to be a trigger for emotional eating and provide stress that is counter productive to my desire to be healthy. I spent Friday getting fingerprinted and submitting my application for my real estate license, and I will be taking the required courses over the next six weeks to actually fulfill the requirements so I can sit for the exam by mid-May. In addition, I am also planning on taking some courses for insurance licensure. Looking ahead, I hope to be back in some form of sales before the end of the year.
Today I will plan out my menus for the upcoming week in an effort to avoid a repeat of last week's disastrous eating habits. I went shopping yesterday and bought lots of fresh produce and healthy lunch items. I will throw out the rest of the ice cream also.
On a brighter note, I was very diligent about exercise last week which probably helped me not gain more than the pound. I'm headed off to the gym here shortly, so I can get a good workout done before the weekend is gone. Then I will come home and cook for the upcoming week. Hopefully it will be better than the previous one!
A special note to my Sparkfriends: You just do not know how encouraging your blogs can be to me; I especially appreciate the ones with just a positive quote: it really helps to put things into perspective again. Unfortunately, I was reading them at the end of the day oftentimes, so I need to log in during the day & see them when I am feeling overwhelmed. Thanks to all of you!