Sunday, March 03, 2013
Oh hey....that's me!!
I'm addicted to my camera, so I figured I'd post a picture for anyone who may read this, so you can see the mind behind the blog!
I'm proud to say that I have reached my February goal and have shed 10lbs, bringing me down to a slightly slimmer 255! I am beyond thrilled, believe me.... but I have been dwelling on one simple fact all day: I can't see a difference. Don't get me wrong; I completely understand that I won't see a difference THAT fast....but still, I've always been self-conscious in a way.
In 2006, I weighed about 190lbs. When I looked in the mirror, I saw someone who was beyond fat. I saw a blob in the mirror; I saw fat rolls; I saw chubby thighs. I had a VERY negative opinion of the way I looked. NOW, I look back in photos and just stare.... I wasn't fat at all. How did I see myself as this blob when I was wearing medium sized shirts....when I was wearing size 14 jeans.... I would KILL to wear those now. I looked good in the things I wore; the pictures look wonderful! But what I saw in 2006, was exactly what I see in the mirror now.....FAT.
I'm very comfortable with my body now. I'm not as self-conscious as I was. I've learned over the years that it's just something you have to live with; you should love who you are no matter what. My ex-boyfriend made me relapse into that negative self image by telling me I needed to lose weight and that I wasn't allowed to have certain things (someone tell me that I CAN'T have one soda? I don't think so...). However, with the love of my current boyfriend and the support of my family and close friends, I've learned to believe in myself again.
So here it goes....time to go meet another goal! Watch out March....here I come, and I plan to be another 10 lbs lighter!