Saturday, March 02, 2013
Do you ever have one of those days when you just feel "off" and really don't care? That's me today. Actually, that's been me for a few days now. All week long I've been running and chasing my tail trying to get a ton of stuff finished, and I think it's finally caught up with me and I'm just plain tired! I may be at the bottom of my bipolar cycle too and that certainly isn't helping matters.
We had to be up early today to pick up my son's new bed frame. I also got a little shopping done while I was in Greenwood, but I didn't really feel like doing much. I tried to lay down for a bit although what I should have done was hit the treadmill. I didn't really sleep although I got away from everyone and everything as I shut myself off in my bedroom.
After my break, I went to a bridal shower. Fortunately there weren't a lot of things there to blow my eating schedule, but there was some really rich chocolate cake with a ganache; it tasted wonderful (although the sweetness eventually made me queasy since I haven't had much lately). By the time I got home, I just wanted to go back to bed again. Now I'm sitting here typing instead of closing my eyes because if I go to sleep, I'm afraid I'll miss my exercise again and I've already missed 3 days this week!
This is not the way I like to start a new month! I have new goals but I'm not really working toward them yet. When is this "funk" going to break so I can be successful again? I've been through this enough to know that it will get better, but when you're in the midst of it, it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.