Saturday, March 02, 2013
So far, today has been what I will call "useless", except for it's not. I have an awfully hard time with "me" time without feeling like a selfish lout. And I did wake up feeling like I'd been hit with bricks. Why oh why, I ask you, did I challenge my sixth graders to a high kick contest(tae kwan do style) if they finished all their work? Why did I choose to win? Why did I agree to (and yes beat -- but they ARE in 6th grade) all of them in arm wrestling? Is this how I fight my "age issues"? Is this what 53 means, hurting like $%^&*!!
It took HOURS today to become motivated and MOVE today and God Bless Coach Nicole. She helps me move (when I can keep up) and somehow her voice tells me it's ok if I can't do ALL the reps, though I do try.
I didn't lose any weight this week. I knew it when I ate soup one too many times (I have tough times with salt) and went with frozen foods vs fresh. Things get so hectic that I rarely cook during the school year (well I WOULD but my husband likes to eat before 9pm -- go figure) and he's still "getting with the program" regarding weight loss (**sigh**). But I'm still workin' this program and DETERMINED to be successful.
I was moved by Sharon10002's recent blog "Loving Yourself: My Body Pledge of Allegiance". She spoke to my heart and I cried for all the times I've misused and abused this body of mine through crazy over exercising and binge eating. She helped me remember what I once knew: we are beings living from the inside out. When I fall into what our culture, my family of origin, and (most importantly) this inner exacting parent judges and criticizes and says is "correct", I MUST stop and breathe and remember what is true. Thank you Sharon! You speak truth to power, the inner power inside all of us!!
Well, I hope this wasn't the strangest ramble you've ever seen but it was indeed a ramble. Thanks for listening. I do feel better than earlier. Hope y'all have an awesome weekend! Let's keep on Sparkin' and hope to talk to you again, real soon!
"Ten mucho cuidado" means "take good care". All the best!