Saturday, March 02, 2013
As much motivation as I had for several days this week, is as much motivation as I lack today. Hahaha! You gotta love hormones, emotions, and humanity. For a couple days this week I was hiking along, picking wildflowers, and enjoying the view. Then, the climb got steeper and sh!t got serious. I had to clench my teeth and fight for uphill progress yesterday, but fight I did!! I stuck to the plan. I wanted to eat my feelings pretty badly, but I knew ultimately, that would make things worse. I've learned a lot on this journey, and making it through yesterday was actually a highpoint. I overcame my hormones, my emotions, and my depression. I fought off bitterness and kept looking up, instead of looking down and being swallowed by self-doubt. By mid-afternoon, by the grace of God, I got off the couch and worked the guest bedroom redo and cleaning the basement. This morning when I weighed in I had lost another pound, and, while that makes me happy, I am the most happy with the mountain I mentally climbed yesterday. Hormones, emotions, loss, and depression will always be there trying to derail my goals and drag me down. Every day that I can overcome them, is a victory, and with enough victories, I believe I can win this war. It's going to happen.