Saturday, March 02, 2013
This month I will reach my goal. This month is the last month I will pay to go to a Weight Watchers meeting. This isn't something I want. This is something I am going to do. Just like I am going to send in my taxes, pay the electric bill, vacuum the living room rugs, I am going to lose these last 4 pounds I've been playing with for 6 months. And I'm putting it out into the universe and claiming this fact. It's not a wish. It's not a want. It's a 'going to do it'. That's why I'm telling you all here.
Putting it out there isn't just some airy fairy juju MagicSpeak.
At least it's not if you don't happen to like airy fairy juju MagicSpeak.
So what IS putting it out there?
It's the last statement in a plan. It's the destination I'm going to. If exercise, carefully tracking what I eat, drinking lots of water, asking myself if what I'm about to do is a healthy action are the baby (or even big girl) steps I'm taking - putting that last statement out there tells the world ... but more importantly tells ME where those steps are taking me - to a goal weight - with money at the end.
I realize that I haven't believed I was actually going anywhere for a long time. You see - I'm pretty durn happy where I am. I love it that my smallest clothes are loose on me. I love it that I can shop in any department now when I look for new clothes. I love it that I'm stronger on my legs and can pick up heavier objects. I really love it that I go to the gym 4 days out of almost every week.
I'm proud of what I see in the mirror - even excited. I'm proud of the fact I went to the gym every week in December - several times every week - for the first time since I joined that gym in 1998! I like the compliments people give me. I like almost everything about where I am.
But I know I haven't gotten 'there' and this week I realized ... I really want to go there.
There are practical reasons - like - the cost for a personal trainer went up this month and I'd like to use that WW money to help pay for it.
And there are ephemeral reasons - like - I want to be one of the Lifetime-At-Goal women who come to the meetings and inspire me.
So here I am - with 2 pounds to get to free meetings and 4 to get to goal. Where I will be in March. I'm putting it out there for the universe to see so it won't be surprised when I ignore its other distractions. I'm putting it out there for you to see so you can check up on me. I'm putting it out there - out loud - so I can remember that I'm not just wandering in the desert - I've stopped and smelled a zillion roses - now it's time to get where I'm going.