Squeaking into March
Saturday, March 02, 2013
Except for one glorious week celebrating our 25th anniversary, Jan and Feb were pretty much a write-off for me. Illness and deaths in family and friends, very little gym time, brouhaha at work, a migraine that lasted a week, and the possibility that I have yet another cancer. I’m quite anxious about that if I think about it at all, so I’m trying not to. I see the onco on March 12th, so not much I can do about it until then except keep working on getting stronger.
Which brings me to March, and better things. My naturopath has given me an eating plan and supplements that will help to make me stronger, particularly if I do have to battle cancer again. But better yet, she’s given me a form to track it all on, it’s easy to use, and it fits in the agenda that I carry around with me so I’ll be tracking as I go along. That will be much more useful and accurate!
My plan for March looks like this:
Nutrition: plan my meals and snacks, and write them in my agenda so that I can refer to the menu on the way home. Commuting time, particularly if we’re delayed getting home because of a snowstorm, wreaks havoc with my supper. If I have the menu with me, I’ll know what’s on and I can call my DS to start prepping if I’m running late.
Lesson learned: I still haven’t figured out triggers, but I have figured out that if I have a really good herbal tea – lately a combination of orange and wild berries – it covers my cravings for sweets. WooHoo!
Exercise: Gym, at last three times a week, preferably more. Cardio every day. Period.
Challenge 1: Still a lot of joint pain (ankles and knees) from the Tamoxifen, but at least it’s less than with the Amiridex. I’ve resorted to taking painkillers when it gets too bad, but I hate the thought of doing that for the next number of years. Gotta find a solution to this problem. I’m thinking maybe pool time at the gym will help.
Challenge 2: I am still a very bad sleeper, awake in the middle of the night, sometimes two or three nights in a row with only three hours of sleep. I need to regulate that somehow.
Teamwork: I’m a Firecracker in the Winter/Spring 5% Challenge. From past experience, the 5% teams are pretty lively (as usual, you get what you put into it). I’m afraid my participation in the first week suffered along with my migraine, but I’m looking forward to getting into it more.
I'll finish with someone else's words, or rather refer you to a blog that I think everyone should read: Sharon10002's blog of February 28th, entitled "Loving Yourself: My Body Pledge of Allegiance". Go read it. Just go.
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You're doing fabuluos
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Happy Silver Anniversary!
we're here to support you. I have also suffered with chronic migraines. Hope you discover your triggers and can eliminate most of them.
So sorry for your loss(es) in the family and for illnesses.
I'm sorry too that you are battling cancer and (who knows if more). Praying for your strength, stamina, peaceful nights sleep. Hang in there and let me know how I can specifically pray for you.
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Comment edited on: 3/2/2013 1:53:12 PM
I pray that your are having a false alarm, and not another cancer, or a recurrance. I will tell you 2 things... my doctor took me off tamoxifen after 3 years and gave me Evista instead for the last 2 years. Less side effects. He also gave me Effexor, which helped with some of the side effects, and that was when I realized I had been depressed and didn't realize it.
My second thing is that my BFF has had - and recovered from 3 primary cancers. Her first was an "inoperable" melanoma that was wrapped around her brain stem. She found a surgeeon willing to try, found an experimental chemo at Duke (a 9 hour drive) and that was almost 35 years ago. Then 12 years ago a GIST tumor - relatiely rare, and she had chemo that made her trrow up every day for 4 years. The last one was conon cancer, about 4 years ago. happily caught early enough to only need surgery.
My message - don't deapair no matter what the news. Yes, not everyone recovers from cancer, but living in this age, your chances are better every single day. Keep your faith, and lean on your friends and family.
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Comment edited on: 3/2/2013 10:43:18 AM
It's a new week! Keep your focus and motivation! Hang in there! You can do it!
1666 days ago
Yep, Sharon's blog was very good. You have been going through some tough, tough times. I have some thoughts for you. 1. Compartmentalize. You have a lot going on. When it is all strung together, as we women do, it is overwhelming. Try to compartmentalize (like men do...durn them). Try to deal with the items one by one. Overcome them one by one. Problem solve on them one by one. It looks like you are breaking it down here and heading in that direction. Keep it up. 2. Stay in the Present. Have you read The Present? It's a good, short read. Makes so much sense. It's about how when we look back and look forward, it makes life harder and more depressing/oppressing. But in the present, we are okay. When we stay in the present, our lives are more joyful, calm, and manageable. 3. Keep being good to you! Realize that none of this is forever and that this time is exceptional in the timeline of things. That's hard to see when you're "in it." When I recently went through a VERY trying time, I couldn't understand why I was letting myself gain weight and binge eat. In looking back now, I realize that time was a "top 5" on my list of awful times in my life. So, now, it makes sense to me that it was just a time that so horrendous that I couldn't maintain it all. If I had it to do over again, I would just really focus on being going to myself through that awful time...knowing it would pass. Hang in there! I'm praying for you! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on!
1666 days ago
Hello Fellow Firecracker!
Thank you for sharing your struggle with us, yet keeping such a hopeful attitude. I like your plan - and I am going to try your tea idea as well. Anything that can help calm my craving for sweets is worth a try - and there are sooo many flavors of tea - what a bonanza!
I pray that March would be a fresh start for you - and that whatever news you receive on March 12th - you would create a plan and have sweet peace about it.
1666 days ago
Sounds like a good plan! I swim most everyday due to ongoing pain from arthritis. Swimming for me is pain-free exercise. Hope it works for you. Your tea sounds good. I will have to see if the Japanese stores here carry anything similar.
1666 days ago
I have been thinking about you a LOT. Ah... so that is where the probiotics came from. I have been thinking they must be R's but realized now I was not the one to clean out the fridge downstairs. Mystery solved!
Yes, I have been sooo sick. Thank you for the virtual soup. I have had very little appetite but eating helps control the coughing so soup has been great. Fevers and sweats at night. I have been walking around with a chlorox spray bottle with me and wishing I could call in sick the past couple of mornings. Actually DH did cover for me yesterday as I managed to do everything but the pancakes and then crashed and he dutifully rolled out of bed and took over. There are benefits to working from home.. your bed is not far, lol. This morning I have staggered the cooking so I can go sleep a couple of hours before the last prep and serve.
In my opinion Pool time in the gym WILL help with the ankle and knee pain. Walk walk walk in the water. It is amazing how much the water resistance in so many directions forces us to strengthen around the joints... it's like when you are trying to maintain that upright postition in the deep end and are engaging the abs/core to do it... the same with trying to walk in the pool and keep your leg in alignmnet... all the muscles have to work together.
Is it possible that the sleep problems are related to sleep apnea and breathing problems are waking you up?
I love my team challenges. Woo hoo firecracker! Hey, every spark counts, right? Makes me think of fireflies and July and our wedding at the lake.... hmmmm. I'm glad you had a good anniversary. Makes me smile because so many people don't really CELEBRATE and APPRECIATE their wonderful relationships but you guys do. Nice.
I know it has been a hard few months. Was not supposed to be that way. Not fair. This was supposed to be a good year for you... but it is only beginning. You have lots of people rooting for you and if you imagined them all together it would be one pretty massive bear hug... just sqeeze out that cancer or if not cancer... then form a big wall to protect you and keep it away. They say visualization helps...
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