Saturday, March 02, 2013
I really am a sucker for a blank page. So shiny and new. No mistakes. Just pure fresh possibility. That is what every month is. Or every day for that matter.
I haven't been vigilant. I mean. I am not going on crazy benders or anything, but I have just been complacent. I was sick for 2 weeks in February and did zero working out during that time. I have only been a handful of times besides that.
But now it's March!
Today I met with the university health program and got signed up for a personal trainer. He sent me my first assessment, saying we could meet sometime this weekend, but I responded like 10 minutes later and that was like 4 hours ago and he still hasn't responded back, so I am not sure when we are meeting, which is kind of a pain since I am not supposed to work out before my assessment or eat within 3 hours and I can't really plan for that without knowing when it is...
I am really excited about this. I feel like it will give me some accountability. And will get me strength training, which I have wanted to do, but have been pretty scared/intimated about trying. I am hoping that by having someone pushing me, I can push through some of my emotional barriers as well. I know in my head there are a lot of thing I don't attempt to do because I imagine that I will fail to meet up to some sort of imaginary bar that isn't there. In fact, on my questionnaire it asked if there was something I didn't like doing physical-wise and I put "running" and the lady asked what about running I didn't like. And as I thought about it, I realized the only answer I had was because I wasn't good at it. And that is a sad, sad excuse to not do something.
I've missed you all! What have you been up to??